Alone..Depressed..Sad..

[Ggrand]

Hi..I'm new here..just need to put my feeling down..no one to talk to makes depression and anxiety so hard...the last 4 days I have either been in bed crying or on the lounge crying..I can't seem to get out of this...I am becoming a prisioner in my own home as its getting progressively difficult to go out.. I have to go out Tuesdays so I do everthing on that day but it's like I'm holding my breathe all day until I get back to the safety of my home then I can let go and that starts the cycle again of spending the next 6 days at home either in bed or on the lounge sad and depressed...I really feel like just giving up.. My husband passed away 4 years on This coming Thursday. My children live 6 hours drive away and have small children so I don't see them that much.Bad mum and grandmum I am on there last visit i was pleased to see them but I just wanted them to go home. I feel so aweful and numb atm..

[Hanna3]

Hi Grandy (waves to Deebi, Paws, everyone)

I replied to your nice post yesterday on my thread... I am sorry you are feeling lonely and with your son not catching up with you.... I left a comment yesterday on my thread... hugs dear lady wishing you a pleasant day can you sit out in the sunshine for a bit... fluffy hugs from my fur Sam xoxoxoxo

[quirkywords]

GrandyIt is said when loved ones come near by but don’t let us know. I understand how painful it is for you when your sons are not communicating much.
you have so much compassion for others even when you have your own issues. You are a real champion.

[Ggrand]

Hello Quirky, Paws, 👋Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩..and everyone...

Thank you for your posts...

Quirky...I should not have expected, that they would think of something so simple...as to ring me..

Its okay though...took a lot of hard work, lots of lessons learnt and tears to be where I am with them....

My hurt will fade...it always does..As long as they are happy and we continue to chat sometimes...I’m okay..

Once this pandemic is over my youngest said he is coming to visit me..... he cannot come now...as we are COVID free in my area of the central west...and many elderly people live in this village...

Kind thought with care everyone..

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy....

[demonblaster]

Mrs beautiful 👩‍❤️‍👩 hi all ☺

I bet you were relieved 😅 when that was all over 🤗
It's a hard one.
Got your date in my calender.

It would be weird darl. These things take a bit adjusting to get used to what's going on.

Lovey a positive if I understand properly is it'll be being removed nearish future.

Time goes fast hun, you'll be looking back on this before you know it.
Hoping this can be easily sorted and if the cause of your pain it can choof right off! Fingers and toes 🤞

It's been ages since newbies been there. Has she been unwell or maybe away because of covid? I thought she was closer to returning. She sounds nice. I hope not too long huns.

Wow that's fantastic you not puffing as much with your walk to Bettys and well done walking too. Hope that was nice being out in the fresh air with familiar but change of scenery from being home.

Good on you doing the pedals. 2,500 steps is a good effort lovey. I'm going to suss prices on those. Hopefully you're sleeping better with the excercise.

Oh darl absolutely loneliness is such a roar hollow terrible feeling.
I think or hope what could help is people liking themselves darlin because we're our own company 24/7 but that in itselfs also a battle.
It is a very empty sad way to be 🤗 I've known loneliness and feel very sad for people that are. It's cruel. We're more a social bunch of bananas 🍌 than not. Same as dogs 🦊 (one of your jokes I still obviously use often 😆 and love)

I'm glad you're in touch with the boys at least with texting which yes I was thinking before you said to dear Quirky about how far you've come with them but for sure it would hurt dear Grandy love 😟 good for you knowing the hurt will ease. Hard though. It's sad Grandz 🤗

I think that too huns friends need to be able to say things without agro because from both sides comes from love not malice. 😚

Love you so much precious friend. Swod yes lovey, Geez I hope one day, 👩‍❤️‍👩💜💗🤝👀

Hannah thanks for what you said ☺ and for the cuddles from little fur bubs for us all 🤗

Always 🗯

🕊

[Hanna3]

Hi Deebie (and Grandy, Paws, everyone here)

You are welcome please have some more soft, furry warm hugs from little Sam - he's been for a nice stroll in the park this afternoon...

Grandy, why is it nice people are so often left alone? Thinking of you lots dear lady...

And warm soft hugs from my little furry guy to anyone here who needs a cuddle... xoxoxo (Sam loves cuddles!) xoxo

[Paw Prints]

Hello Grandy,

Oh lass it's so unfair you're doing it so hard at the moment. Here is a big gentle hug wrapping around you like a super soft blanket made of the softest fluffy clouds.

It is lovely to hear that Mrs Cranky has become Mrs Caring, it is so kind of her to notice your hurt & reach out to you. I believe it has been your ongoing gentleness, kindness & support for her that has enabled her to learn to trust & care for you.

Lass if you hear a rustling sound as you sleep it will be one of the forest dragons slipping through the gap in your window to join in your dreams of an open forest glade surrounded by softly swaying willow trees. If you listen you will hear the sound of a bubbling brook tinkling to the side & as it gets darker the trees will be jewelled by the glow of glow worms giving a warm soft light still letting the star twinkle brightly filling the sky. As you snuggle up to the dragons downy soft belly, it will lay its head on your lap, wrapping its wings around you to keep you warm. Approaching lights will be from many glow worms lighting the way for your friends to come & join you for a picnic.

Huggily hugs

Paws

[demonblaster]

Hey my gorgeous bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩 and every lovely person out there ☺

Grandy love you know you're in my thoughts from 👀 eyes open to 💤 sleepy time with deep love and hope that you have more than just some light in your days 🤗

We'll get there Grandz and all. We can and are starting to crack the Titanium walls because we're learning how to access and use our 🛠 tools that are our strength that's stronger than beasty brats Titanium!

I'll post the other one later lovey not long up 😴

Just also wanted to say hi to Pawsy 🐾 🤗. Darl that was an incredibly good virtual trip. Wow I read it to Mr Deebi as I do a lot of stuff esp our fantasy Grandy and as he does ours too he really liked this as well Pawsy.

Cool cool we have another virtual traveller woo hoo 😀

Hope you enjoyed creating it as much as I do and guessing you too Grandy love ☺

Sending through carrier pigeon 🕊 love and appreciation for your kindness and beautiful friendships to you awesomes here 🤗

Grandy precious friend. PubAok. We're one sweetyheart. Our hearts and souls are joined 🌜💜🤝💗🌛If we believe without any doubt we can live without hurting or worst scenario limited pain. It's within us. I know it is!

Laters loves ☀️

🌱

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩, Hanna, Paws 🐾 and everyone...🤗.

Thank you for you care and kind posts...I really appreciate them...and love the hugs...

Hanna..Thank you for thinking of me..I think kind people are left alone until someone needs their help..then they are remembered..

Paws..I have been helping Mrs. NSC..(Not so Cranky) weekly unloading the trailer full of fire wood she buys..Today she asked if I could help her move some furniture around..I did and wow was it heavy..💪..So much I loved the dragon story..my favourite, as a young child, I used to walk through this cave and into the land of dragons where I would climb on one and go on great adventures away from my life...I still use this dragon land for an escape when I can....Loved the dragon wings around me...Thank you it was beautiful..

Deebi..Newbie had an operation for women’s prolapse, then had to isolate for 14 days because she had the op in Sydney..then she got an infection...Not sure when/if she will come back..

I want a stronger brain..one that can stand up for itself..not the one I’ve got now that keeps me wanting to runaway all the time...when someone is mean to me..One that can give me some courage and peace in my life...If ever they want volunteers for a brain transplant I’ll be the first to put my hand up...We can’t change who we are or our learned ways..because they make up who we are and we can’t change that...ever...We can change our mindset for a while, but it doesn’t last long until we’re back into our old mindset again..

I’m okay so please don’t worry..Wish so much that we could just sit down at chat to each other...swod... love you lots Deebi...💜🐻🤗..yadimh always with my 💭 and care..

I’m about to make a nice cup of tea and sit outside with the Stars, moon and my furs..it’s a beautiful night tonight..

Sending my love, care and hugs to everyone..🧡🦋🤗.

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..🌜🌹🌛..1 day =🕊🌱

[demonblaster]

Hi darlin 👩‍❤️‍👩🤗

Excuse me a seccy. Hannah lovey sorry forgot to say hi back ☺👋

Oh loven the cuddles from dear Sam. I'm usually scared of dogs till I know they don't think I'm the biggest most juicy bone they've ever seen 😂 in their life and know for sure they won't bite or growl at me.

He sounds like a gorgeous like Grandys do too.

Hi sweetyheart 🤗

At the shops we sometimes just meander around having a looksy usually in supermarkets. I've seen things & think Oh Grandy would like that.

Saw an absolutely knock out piccy on a ..dah can't think what of 2 unicorns. They're magnificent. If they were real I reckon they'd look like that.

And I know you'd love this gorgeous one Mr Deebi got me the beautiful.

Same if I see a 🌈 think of you and there was a gorgeous bag a lady had we were talking to the other day and she had two such pretty butterflies. 🗯 of you and starts.,

I often think of her Mandy Sez and of course Starwolf a lot ⚘ Wonder how they're going the loves.

Hope you're ok Grandy love. Please don't feel you ned to post or reply to this just wanted mainly to not be ignoring Hannah ☺

Love you Mrs Grandy Awesome.

👩‍❤️‍👩💜🗯🌈🕊

[Hanna3]

Hi Grandy,

I just stopped by here for a minute and what you said about kind people being left alone until they are needed - oh that is so right and it's sad... but that is what seems to happen to me too..

And I can't stand up for myself very well either, at home growing up I was in trouble if I spoke up at all...

Grandy I hope you are OK, so glad your neighbour helped when you were sitting crying...

I do keep coming by to check on you.. sending fluffy soft cuddles from little Sam your way.. today was a perfect Spring day and the fountain in our park is on again after over a year of no water - it's so lovely to watch the sunlight on the water and hear the sound of it...

Deebi dear lady I did not feel forgotten but thank you! You are a dear friend for Grandy. Little Sam is a sweet boy he loves cuddles I don't think anyone is frightened of little Sam - he will just try to give you a kiss...

Take care of yourselves dear ladies, and waves to dear Paws if she comes by here hugs hugs