Alone..Depressed..Sad..

[Ggrand]

Hi..I'm new here..just need to put my feeling down..no one to talk to makes depression and anxiety so hard...the last 4 days I have either been in bed crying or on the lounge crying..I can't seem to get out of this...I am becoming a prisioner in my own home as its getting progressively difficult to go out.. I have to go out Tuesdays so I do everthing on that day but it's like I'm holding my breathe all day until I get back to the safety of my home then I can let go and that starts the cycle again of spending the next 6 days at home either in bed or on the lounge sad and depressed...I really feel like just giving up.. My husband passed away 4 years on This coming Thursday. My children live 6 hours drive away and have small children so I don't see them that much.Bad mum and grandmum I am on there last visit i was pleased to see them but I just wanted them to go home. I feel so aweful and numb atm..

[Paw Prints]

Hello Grandy,

Mr Walrus aka Croix has started a thread called "How to take practical advantage of isolation" which I thought you might enjoy.... as it has a developing tale which is added to by all.... so far this includes a princess a puppy fairy floss chocolate wagon wheels + more

Love & hugs

Paws

[Peppermintbach]

Hi gorgeous Grandy (& a wave to all),

You sound like you’re really struggling...gentle and easy does it..

I am just going to quietly sit by your side. I won’t make too much noise, as I don’t want to startle the magpies nearby...

I have brought a little picnic basket for everyone here to share. Hot chocolate, tea, coffee, little sandwiches, lemon drizzle cake, & some chips plus dip.

What I wanted to say was...you are not alone, lovely one...

Hugs & much love,

Peppy xoxo

[Tess2]

Dear Grandy,

i understand how you feel low over everything. I have worked in health for a long time and I can’t believe how far they are taking the restrictions to people’s lives, this will have terrible effects on people, and is generating so much fear. People are going to need to much more support from mental health services.

I didn’t buy loads of toilet paper either, but seem to be able to get enough to get by.

I still have my family and am glad to have my son living with me. My doggies are also company and don’t give a fig about the virus. I am just trying to go about my daily life as best as I can.

i think of you and hope you keep finding joy in nature around you, I have always admired that about you

love tess

[demonblaster]

Hey beautiful/s 👩‍❤️‍👩 ☺

You are one incredible lovely just wanted to mention that in case I forgot to say lately ☺

Hear ya lovey about the news I avoid it usually. If its important we hear about it along the way tho I have been watching a fair bit at times to see whats happening and what we can/t do. I think very wise not watching esp in the darks

Talking of ..SO good hearing you're starting to pick up. That's impressive hun. You really are a power horse

Excuse me a sec. Lovely Paws that was so considerate and thoughtful to give Grandy the supermarket times. Once our gorgeous said your posts are always lovely or words to that affect, I totally agree and another recently moved me. Your a lovely friend hun 🤗⚘

I'm so glad you smiled gorgeous one I'm unsure at times whether to throw a muck around (muckar) in or not. Nice hearing that I love your humour too you crack me up. Same you know me too ☺ love it

Sad but true sleep has so many avenues of help for us.

Even the Maggies love you 🕊

You're very welcome for the poem. Warming it touched your heart.

I better go sleepybyes sweetyheart didnt mean to but it ended up 5.30 a.m bed. Between head & mania sleep didnt happen. Beasty was working on me so I walked away from [IT] ( xx never forgotton beautiful Starwolf) 😓⚘& did some of posting which took some hrs but got there haha beasty brat

I hope you get to see those adorable little 🐣 often to see them grow and always enjoy the beautiful memories. As Tess said 👋 ☺ it's lovely hearing you talk about nature and the animals you meet I often think about them.

What a treasure you are Peppystar you continually live up to your name...the basket was delish...👂what's that...oh oh...OH...it was for everyone 😲....covers mouth pretending to cough...pssttt Grandy don't say anything 😷 to Peppy but let's just say I heard some disturbing news on the chocolate 🍫 vine about some choccy coated ... one sec...just gotta grab a hanky 🎀 to catch the dribble 💧...liquer 🍎 apples that I sneaky sneaky replaced...with real 🍎...😨 uh oh... 😶 ... they were yours weren't they...ooops...shimmies off ... I say evennn...exit...stage Right...alreadyyyy...screech...

Goodnight or morning now oops again beautiful soul good girl going to bed early. Hoping restful sleeps. Thats right it's quicker recovery darlin. Keep up the incredible recovery. You're amazing 🤗

Growing love absolutely. Always 🗯 huns. I wish Grandz 👼😢

🌜👩‍❤️‍👩👭🍎😆🌛

🎁🏘✨🦄 magic 😚

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

Hi Grandy

Just peeking in with a little hello and a hug.

You talked about a magpie popping in. I've had lots of birds visiting me lately, and curiously they all sit on the same spot on the fence line. First it was a kookaburra, who didn't mind me getting close enough to take a decent photo and have a chat with him. Then there was a magpie and a mudlark sitting together in that spot. And yesterday an elegant grey water bird. I don't know if these are signs or what. It seems odd they all choose the same spot. But I'm grateful anyway. I adore them all 🙂

Well I was going to scrounge around in Peppy's picnic basket for leftovers, but I have a feeling db might have cleaned it out 🙃

Big hugs lovely lady x

Katy

[Ggrand]

Hello Paw 🐾, Peppy, Tess...

Thank you for your beautiful visit to mine...It Presley helps more then you know...

Deebi, Katy, I’ll reply to your post a little later...I’m still getting mind confusion/fog..and noting my posts before sending and it’s taking hours..for one post..

Paws, I’ll take a look on Croix thread..thank you I like adding to stories..Sounds like a fun thread, to help my chatty brain...

Peppy...Thank you for the picnic basket, your visit...and sitting with me...Not really in a good place atm, but I am better then I was...which I’m embracing as much as I can....Little does Deebi know I exchanged the liquor chocolate apples for some yummy waxed candle apples before she got her little hands into the picnic basket..

Tess,,I’m very happy for you that your son is with you..I’m missing the weekly visits from my mh supporter..I haven’t seen anyone nor talked to anyone face to face now for a few weeks...It’s getting me down trying to manage this downer on my own..is incredibly hard...

I’m med sleeping most days and nights until I can manage me better...I can’t ring them as there work phones are msg only for incoming...They can ring me, my original supporter rang me yesterday...from her private phone...I was not up to talking because I knew I would cry..so I was just yes and no replying to her...no conversation...

I am okay for now..I still have one roll left..I buy the extra long rolls..which last me a few weeks...hopefully by then the ridiculous panic buying will have ended....

It really does help, feeling not so alone, when beautiful people here are so caring and supportive..Thank you everyone....

Kind thoughts..with my love and hugs.💜🤗..

Grandy...🍎☀️🦄👼.

[demonblaster]

Hi everyone ☺

Gorgeous Grandy 👩‍❤️‍👩 Hi my beautiful bbff you've done so well keeping us in the loop thanks so much.

It's awful the confusion & brain fog you dear love. Good getting as much sleep as po our healings in that.

Oh Oh 😂 I still laugh at the choccy wax candle that tweety (Birdy) was cracking up about on another thread.

Loven the new product in that line...thinks to herself 🤔 must get a batch from Peppys empire for a lovely 🎁 to Grandy she loves candles. 💭 Wonder if she knows they're edible...oh wow they're delish I particularly liked the hot one 🔥 now what was that...ah yeah the chilli flavoured one. It's a rare highly sort after type incredibly exy 💰 can't believe how lucky to find one.

Sweetheart I'll bbt. I just wanted you to know I've read and always 👀. I know you like to reply but honestly lovey unless you really want to it's ok.

I know exactly how you're travelling. I'm there atm too probs to less degree atm but no picnic holding ok. It's such an achieve with finally posting eh. You honestly are doing incredibly well precious.

Love you heaps Grandz. Breaks my heart you doing it so hard by yourself 😢 I know you know but not alone but physically I know honey 🤗

Always 💜 & thanks for that amazing support gorgeous friend bbt/l their as well.

Grandy I'm really proud and happy you're starting to pick up.

Nigh nite sweetyheart ☺😚👩‍❤️‍👩

🔥✨🦄👼🏘🕊💜👩‍❤️‍👩👀💭 4 evs bbff always & growing

Cyaz all 👋😊🤗

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩, Katy..and everyone..🤗..

Hi Katy, it’s lovely to see you..I love birds and animals..I have many varieties of birds here..They come for there daily feed and sure enough let me know when I don’t feed them..🙉..I have a fascination with birds...

Deebi...Yes it’s good to be able to post coherently.😂..II think that’s the right word....Posting to others who are struggling helps me to come up quicker once I start...I love caring for people..It’s the only way I can feel a little useful..

Im sorry your also struggling...I’m up and down, trying to keep the ups to last longer is exhausting..staying with the downs is easy...we can let it consume us..which it does for days after a trigger takes us back...we can stay there in the grips of our PTSD reliving it for days or weeks, crying, downing ourselves, feeling guilty, etc..or we can try to ease ourselves up baby steps at a time...My first baby step was watching the magpie watching me...something so trivial as watching a magpie..took me out of my head...

I had a telephone appointment yesterday with a new psychologist in town...She didn’t ring..She made the appointment last week with me by phone...Do these psychologist know the extra damage they can do to me/us...It’s just so wrong...and hurts us...

I eat a lot of chillies 🌶..I chop them up and add to my soup, sandwiches, on top of chops/steaks, fish, hotdogs etc...They are good for us..

I hope that everyone listening here has a good, Good Friday...and a peaceful beautiful day...🦋🌈.

Thank you for being proud and happy for me that I’m picking up....Love you deeply dearest precious bbff...💜🐻🤗👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩..your love and care mean the world to me..

My love , care, and hugs to all the beautiful people listening here..💜🤗...

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy...🕊🌱.

[Paw Prints]

Hello Grandy,

I agree it's wrong & not very professional of your Psych, even if she was tied up with an emergency client, it would have only taken her 5 seconds to send you a text apologizing for missing & saying will call you next week or whenever... but... we should try & give her the benefit of the doubt & remember.... she is human & so can stuff up like all of us can.... she may be dealing with a family crisis & so can't think beyond that..... or it may be one of a hundred other reasons....

It's hard I know.... because beasty likes to pounce on things like that & try to trick us into feeling bad about ourselves..... but lass you are such a lovely, generous & strong soul I'm sure you will be able to tell beasty "go fly a kite" & keep taking those baby steps forward.

Chillies!!!.... Yummmm!!!..... I never used to like them in my younger years, but now.... I'm with you everything tastes nicer with some chilli... though I still can't take the very hot ones... I am actually munching on some chilli & sour cream flavoured crackers as I'm typing this.... I know... Naughty me... Now I just need to succeed in growing them myself... not easy as I definitely don't have a green thumb.... & they seem to know that....

With my vet enforcing owner exclusion, I can't take Woofa to get his nails clipped (usually a two person job)..... So I bought new dog nail clippers yesterday..... he has always hated the clippers I already had.... but I'm hoping he will tolerate the new sharp ones.... this means sometime in the next few days I will have to try to catch Woofa with clippers in my hand..., so if you should hear lots of banging, crashing & possibly some swearing..... it's just me being trampled in Woofa's rush to get away...

Sending you huggily hugs & belly rubs to your furs

Paws

[demonblaster]

Hi sweetyheart this device is frustratingly slow and the usual ones also testing the patience of a saint. Nbn/ heavy traffic/weather or?

Read & cu2moz precious friend.

Love you always, same thoughts and care including to all the fabulous lovelies here 🙋😊

Beautiful sleeps peeps ✨