Alone..Depressed..Sad..

[Ggrand]

Hi..I'm new here..just need to put my feeling down..no one to talk to makes depression and anxiety so hard...the last 4 days I have either been in bed crying or on the lounge crying..I can't seem to get out of this...I am becoming a prisioner in my own home as its getting progressively difficult to go out.. I have to go out Tuesdays so I do everthing on that day but it's like I'm holding my breathe all day until I get back to the safety of my home then I can let go and that starts the cycle again of spending the next 6 days at home either in bed or on the lounge sad and depressed...I really feel like just giving up.. My husband passed away 4 years on This coming Thursday. My children live 6 hours drive away and have small children so I don't see them that much.Bad mum and grandmum I am on there last visit i was pleased to see them but I just wanted them to go home. I feel so aweful and numb atm..

[demonblaster]

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[Tess2]

Hello dear Grandy,

i shall keep posting you messages over Christmas, there is no need for you to feel that you have to respond at all. I just wish to let you know that I am thinking of you and hold your hand. It will help me get through this time, as I find it very stressful and sad

tess

[Lee lee 73]

Hello dear Grandy,

I just want to gently say - all emotions aside and looking on logically - try to not get upset or down about things that are out of your control. Don't let "beasty win". Try not to let it bring you down more lovely lady - mentally and physically . Yes, it is unfair but it (the ward closing down) is something you cannot control. Continue to do what you were intending to do which is be here on BB.

No need to reply beautiful. Please know you are in our thoughts and hearts. 🤗🤗❤❤💕

Sending you love and care and hugs. 🤗😚

Lee

[quirkywords]

Grandy,

many people care for you and will reply and pop in to make sure you are ok.

It does not matter if you don't reply. You are not alone and we wont to support you.

I wish I could take away your pain.

I will pop in over Christmas as I am not going anywhere.

You are in my thoughts.

Quirky

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩💜..., Tess, Lee, Quirky..and all..

Thank you so much for going to be with me on Christmas...

Im being tranfered and taken upstairs to the acute ward at around 2pm tomorrow....

This is so not fair...I’m more then scared...

They could have tranfered me to another ward somewhere..I’m trying so hard not to be upset but it’s so hard not to be..I’m sorry.....

Im trying...but the 😢 are so easily falling...

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩grandy..

[demonblaster]

Beautiful lady hi everyone

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[monkey_magic]

Hi Grandy,

I just did around 5 weeks in the acute ward recently, wishing u the best of luck. Praying for you. I've gotten through it, u can too. Remember the nurses, security and hopefully other patients will look out for you. You survived an abusive marriage, it's in you to get through this too.

I have faith in you lovely. It's hard. Don't let everyone else's stuff get to you, try not to listen as it can be traumatising.

Good luck in there. Xoxoxo

Sending u pearls of strength. If u can make at least one friend & stick together it will be good, or if u can talk to the better nurses in there X.

MMx

[Croix]

Dear Grandy~

It's unfair and frightening, but you have shown an awful lot of courage since you came here. If one as to face the horrible for an unlimited time courage can fail, however here the end is in sight -3 days. And they are not ordinary days but Christmas, so I'd expect there will be more attention paid, kindness given and you may find some of the others in here have things in common and might surprise you.

Actually when I think about it your presence is probably going to be their gain

Croix

[Peppermintbach]

Hi gorgeous Grandy (and a wave to all),

I know you’re frightened and I know you’re feeling unsettled...we will be with you in spirit when you are transferred today. As M_M said, you have been through much worse, so we have faith that you can also get through this...

I hope it’s okay for me to gently suggest trying to just take things moment by moment. Your transfer isn’t till 2pm today, and no doubt, your fears and worries about that will be playing on your mind.

So between now and the transfer, maybe try to ground yourself into the here and now as best you can e.g. if you are eating breakfast, perhaps try to focus on the food (and try not to give too much power to any worrying thoughts), if you have a leisure activity, try to focus on that activity and just let any worries “float”, etc, etc. I know this is infinitely easier in theory than in practice though...

I’m sitting with you now and gently holding your hand. Sending you my love and blessings for Christmas tomorrow...

Love and care,

Peppy xoxo

[startingnew]

thinking of you Grandy and sending lots of love, hugs and butterflies.

We are all sitting with you

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