Alone..Depressed..Sad..

[Ggrand]

Hi..I'm new here..just need to put my feeling down..no one to talk to makes depression and anxiety so hard...the last 4 days I have either been in bed crying or on the lounge crying..I can't seem to get out of this...I am becoming a prisioner in my own home as its getting progressively difficult to go out.. I have to go out Tuesdays so I do everthing on that day but it's like I'm holding my breathe all day until I get back to the safety of my home then I can let go and that starts the cycle again of spending the next 6 days at home either in bed or on the lounge sad and depressed...I really feel like just giving up.. My husband passed away 4 years on This coming Thursday. My children live 6 hours drive away and have small children so I don't see them that much.Bad mum and grandmum I am on there last visit i was pleased to see them but I just wanted them to go home. I feel so aweful and numb atm..

[Lee lee 73]

Hello dear Grandy,

You're amazing too 🤗.

Hon, you may know this, but I guess sometimes a gentle reminder may help....you feeling emotional could also be a side effect of coming off the meds. I'm usually a blubbering mess...more so than usual 🙊. Keep doing what you're doing lovely lady. ..and if it does get harder to turn the negative thoughts around, gently remind yourself it could be the meds and therefore it will hopefully pass.

Hope you sleep well Grandy 🤗🤗 ..and everyone!

💗🐶🐶💗

Lee

[startingnew]

Hi little angel

popping in to see how your going today?

Thinking of you lots

Sending love and many hugs

xoxoxoxoxoxox

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi, Lee, Little Butterfly, and all,

Thank you for your kind posts, They are so much welcomed as you are and appreciated always..

Lee....Thank you for your gentle reminder, about coming off the meds....I seem to be going back to my normal emotional self....The meds didn’t help with anxiety, Bi-polar depression or CPTSD.... but did stop some of my sadness, which is returning and I’m sure I can handle it....

Its been 1 week today, that I was told that I am waiting on a bed at the mental health treatment/rehabilitation facility...I haven’t heard from anyone concerning that, and my anxiety levels are not good, I keep thinking is today the day, etc...and scenarios going around in my head constantly, and I have never ever had scenario issues before, so this is fueling my anxiety.... I am okay and handling this okay.. I think..

Little Butterfly,......Thank you so much for popping in today, I enjoyed your visit...I know how rough it’s been for you for a long time now and really hope that your picking up a little and getting inklings of light in your days...

Deebi.....I’m sorry you have a fear of dogs.. I believe that it’s the way people raise and nurture their pets as to how they behave.....😁My little dogs greets everyone with lot and lots of kisses..Ebony has a foot/toe fetish and if your barefoot at mine, you will definitely have your feet/toes, “washed” by Ebony...Maybe next time your at mine give it a try...

I hope you’re doing okay, sweetheart, I do worry about you a lot when you are episode ing.😔...PUBOK....Love you Deebi...

Will do a check in at yours later to see how your bp is going...and especially how your are doing today..

Love and hugs...💜💜🤗🤗..

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy🦄💜👼..

[Guest8901]

Dear Grandy - BB Forum's very own resident angel.

I'm just popping in to check on you, as I'm concerned about you being so quiet the past day or two.

I know you were having some phone anxiety in anticipation of your psychiatrist's call to say a position was available for you. Has this occurred yet? If so, it could explain your quietness today.

I'm sorry Grandy, this is not an attempt to put pressure on you to respond if you're not up to it. However, I do want you to know that I miss you, and that I'm thinking of you. I'm here to hold your hand and offer a shoulder to cry on if you need it, as I realise you are particularly emotional since you quit the ADs.

Please be okay Grandy, and call a help line if you're not okay.

I'm cooking a special dinner tonight for my 21st wedding anniversary. I am just bundling up a bit for you as well, and sending it VIP express to your place. Pan fried Blue Eyed Cod, some yummy fresh asparagus spears and a couple of baby potatoes. Hope you enjoy. Oh and if your Ebony and Kya are like Charli, they too love fish. A couple of extra bits for them too. 🐶

A gentle hug and much love and affection being sent to you.

Waves to Deebi, Lee, Pepper, SN.

Amanda 💜🤗

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi, Amanda, Lee and all..

Thank you Amanda...

I did write a post a few hours ago here and Deebi’s thread, Deebi’s post landed an hour or so ago..My one here still not...

I never noted it either...silly me...

Im doing okay and will wait and see if post lands or not tonight.......Not sure why this is happening, maybe internet here..

Love you Deebi if your reading, I really hope you’re doing okay,....How are you feeling?..

I hope everyone is good..

love sng hugs..💜🤗

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy🦄💜👼

[demonblaster]

Hey beautiful/s (( hugs ))

I'm keeping a close eye as always on you sweety friend, love what Mandy called you little resident angel, I reckon hun waves back and to everyone 🙂

Will keep an eye on your post coming floss

:D glad you liked the major meltdown comment lol phooey taking a risk with that one weren't ya 😉 😄 😄 actually you were very brave x

You're doing really well holding up yes the mood drops are very hard work but you can as you are turn it around sweetness. Thinkings good if it can ease the pain. SO good to see someone lifting esp a close friend (( x ))

Quote Grandy ...My gratitude, love and respect for you is the very highest.....I really do love you very much....
Beautifully said thank you very much and as you might lol know I feel the same. Magic friendship.

Just wanted to quickly pop in hun, very tired and with luck a longer sleep tonight. You'll be stoked what I did today, I am woo hooo.

:) dats ok Gwandy... whenever you're weddy wif pwezzy. lol polishing. I've got another section of Peppys done so yours won't be too far off. Oh Oh 😄 and somesing else in cyber mail but since the internet playing up you thought, it'll maybe be a while.

Purple heart and cute little loving besty friends holding hands with the widdle Pink heart above. Your IPad has two girls which is cool, lol I've got two of the same a bloke and a girl. Doesn't matter, just tickled my funny bone. Another gremlin, some of them sorted themselves out like screen freeze and other stuff.

Didn't know dogs were fish eaters Mandy x

Nigh night good people 🙂

[Lee lee 73]

Hello dear Grandy,

Just a quick hello to let you know you are in my thoughts. Sorry beautiful, I don't know about 'scenarios' either. I wish I knew what to say, to help you. Do you think it would help if you contacted your psychiatrists office to let them know your anxiety is getting worse . ..or for an update ? I know you shouldn't have to but maybe it might give you a little peace of mind. Just thinking out loud my dear friend.

Wishing you a good sleep beautiful. Sending you a great big hug 🤗❤💗 .

❤Lee

[Peppermintbach]

Hi gorgeous Grandy (and a wave to all),

I think uncertainty is usually difficult. I feel it can put a person on edge, because you’re not 100% sure what will happen next, such as, when there will be a free bed at the hospital...those are my thoughts at least.

Maybe try to just make the most of each day, and I know it’s much easier in theory than in practice, but maybe try not to think too much about hospital.

I suppose when there’s a free bed, they’ll contact you 😉 But in the mean time, I would gently suggest not letting thoughts like “what if today is the day they’ll call?” become the dominant thought of the day...

You’re surrounded by love from your precious fur babies and from us here. Lean into that, spend time on your verandah, inhale the fresh air, hug your fur babies (or they’ll hug you)...do what one of the (many) things you do best, which is appreciating daily beauty with your gentle, nurturing spirit.

I suppose what I’m trying to express is trying not to let “what if’s” and tears overpower your mind (or as much as you can)...

gently holding your hand and hoping you get some sunshine today..,

Love and care,

Peppy xoxo

[Bec06]

Hi my name is bec I have anxiety and autism I do group therapy at today and I am waiting in the waiting room and one of the other people from the group is crying I am crying having an anxiety attack a flashback and Also feel like self harming I feel like I need to tell my psychologist but both of us is crying so how will she adele my psychologist help do I just go in there crying

[Ggrand]

Hello Bec06,

I’m really sorry your strugglingvso very hard Nd your crying while you’re waiting for you psychologist, It’s okay to cry sweetheart, let those tears fall, even though it hurts our eyes and make us feel all hot and sad crying will help release some toxins in your body...

Yes...Bec, if your crying and it’s you turn to see your psych, it’s very much okay to walk into the psychologists office in tears....I have done the same...I cannot wait for very long until my fear and anxiety take control of me and I start crying, many a time I’ve walked in to see my psychologist in tears.......

You have probably finished your appointment by now..I feel that you should be 100% honest with your psychologist on everything you are feeling and everything that you are thinking of and wanting to do to you...Please it’s very important to tell your psychologist so he/she can help you the best he/she can...

Bec, Im not at all familiar with Autism, I have heard of it but never researched it...

Im wondering if you would like to start up a thread of your very own, so others with Autism can also visit your thread and give you the best support that you are so very much deserving of...

If you go back to the top of this page and press on home page..then join discussion...then All posts...then welcome and orientation...you should see a new post red button..if you press that your ready to give your thread a title, and write out what you feel to speak about...I’ll keep an eye out for your new thread and will come in and visit you there if it’s okay...

Gee I hope I gave you the right instructions..if not could someone please help...

Kind thoughts...

Grandy...