Alone..Depressed..Sad..

[Ggrand]

Hi..I'm new here..just need to put my feeling down..no one to talk to makes depression and anxiety so hard...the last 4 days I have either been in bed crying or on the lounge crying..I can't seem to get out of this...I am becoming a prisioner in my own home as its getting progressively difficult to go out.. I have to go out Tuesdays so I do everthing on that day but it's like I'm holding my breathe all day until I get back to the safety of my home then I can let go and that starts the cycle again of spending the next 6 days at home either in bed or on the lounge sad and depressed...I really feel like just giving up.. My husband passed away 4 years on This coming Thursday. My children live 6 hours drive away and have small children so I don't see them that much.Bad mum and grandmum I am on there last visit i was pleased to see them but I just wanted them to go home. I feel so aweful and numb atm..

[demonblaster]

Hi darlin and other darlins ☺

Ohh Grandy SO sorry you were so kind sharing your first Strawberries with us at mine and I didnt thank you, how beautiful of you and you didnt have one so here darlin you have one of mine and I'm sure Peppy bought the melted choccy mmmm yum. How thoughtful of you 🤗

😲 I bet you jumped when Betty said your name, bickies sound yum, so glad you have eachother.

Been 😆 about feeding the pram and talking to it.

Ok cheese tomatoe on toast it is just one second and here we go

Watermelon drink sounds refreshing thanks mam. So you really do like a LOT of pepper 😂 remember? Still lol about that too

Yes Grandy we can get on top of this rot. I think we're starting to make good headway.

Chocolates poison to dogs, poor things missing on that so they're not allowed it anyway our dear wee cuteys. I'll give them a nice bone each

Ok our little secret but looking like Peppy might be onto it uh oh 🙄

Hope you sleep better tonight dear lovely one, oh you're at mine so I'll tuck you in and kiss your forehead for sweety dreams. Little furs all snuggled up to you with as much love as I have for you too 🤗😚💑💜👼 nigh night Grandy. Pubok always precious friend ⚘☺

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi, Peppy / Everyone,

Peppy I only done a bit of research, so far, happiness is also our state of mind, our thoughts...just like depression controlling our thoughts, happiness does the same...and happiness does not stay a constant feeling, it comes and goes accordingly, depending on our thoughts and what we’re doing, it’s the opposite of depression but works the same...ie:- negative or depressive thoughts and low self esteem self dislike...are the starting foundations that depression feeds on...and then grows to consume our mind and getting a stronghold on our thoughts..Depression...☹️

Happiness is the opposite:-..Positive or happy thoughts and liking ourselves and having a good self esteem, is the foundation that happiness feeds on...then happiness can grow to consume our mind and getting a stronghold on our thoughts...Happiness..😆

Just like depression, happiness also comes and goes. it’s not a constant feeling, while we are having a good time with friends, family etc, or doing what we love doing, having self confidence and self liking, we can be happy.

Deebi....Awe Thank you for the strawberry, I have two strawberry plants and I got my first ones yesterday...They are growing in a foam boxes..easy for anyone to grow if they have a balcony..

😂..Oh wow, I remember, the soup, and when I went to put a few peppercorns in the soup...oops the whole jar fell in when the lid came off..😂🤣🤣...I do like lots of pepper, but not a jar full...😁...

Chocolate is not good for dogs, no not in the long run...Oh Deebi, they love those bones so much...a vet told me once, never give a dog a bone that they can eat...only give them bones that is too big for them to eat.. (Sorry Peppy, Birdy, Magic..no disrespect here)...

Thank you for tucking me in..yes I had some sleep last night, but all the furs snuggled up to me, was comforting until they decided they wanted all the bed 🛏....🙃.. getting warmer nights now, I have the pedestal fan on. and my two doesn’t like the breeze very much, so they kinda try to snuggle closer to me so I’ll block out the breeze...

Deebi..Yes we can get on top, a lot of hard work, I think we need to take complete control of our thoughts at all times...sounds easy, not hard to do....but when beasty Ames over and is control of our thoughts....taking it back ithat control is so,very very very hard...to do..

Love you very much Deebi...🦄💜👼..🛵..nearly ready Deebi..

I hope everyone’s day is good today..

💜&🤗...

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩grandy🦄💜👼..

[startingnew]

HI Grandy

Sneding many hugs and much love to you

xoxoxoxox

[Lee lee 73]

Hello dear Grandy,

❤❤😚😚 thinking of you lovely lady. Hope you're doing better than ok 😚😚❤❤

Lee 🤗🤗

[Ggrand]

Hello Little butterfly, Lee...

Thank you both for sending hugs and thinking of me...It means a lot to know that you all care...

Love and hugs,

Grandy.....

[Lee lee 73]

Hello lovely Grandy,

How are you going beautiful? What ya been doin?

What you found out from googling happiness is interesting Grandy. Thank you for sharing it with us.

How are you going with reducing your meds? Hope you're going ok with it lovely lady. How are your gorgeous Kya and ebony?

Let us know how you're going - when you feel up to it of course.

You're in my thoughts often dear Grandy.

Sendingyou big warm hugs 🤗🤗🤗 and caring thoughts.

❤ 😍🤗❤

Lee

[demonblaster]

Hi gorgeous and all lovelies 🖐

Just wanted to give you a big long comforting loving 🤗 and for you to know you're SO loved appreciated and needed.

Here for you too sweety lady and always 👀👂🏻🤝 (super glued)

Dear friend 🌜💑💜🌛

Hope you have a peaceful refreshing sleep and the cicadas stay asleep. 🕊🐥🐘

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi, Lee and all.

Thank you so much for calling in ....I so very much needed a big long comforting hug today...and a big warm hug....I’m doing good...just feeling so alone and lonely...

Lee I just stayed home today, I couldn’t get me to darts today...Just not up to doing, going anywhere today...but I’m okay....

Thank you for your kind words...I appreciate them so much....

Love you Deebi, my special friend...🌜🦄💜👼🌛...I seem to not be able to think straight today and my mind is lacking words...my brain isn’t working properly atm..😁..but it will...

Love and hugs everyone 💜🤗....

I hope you all sleep good and restful...

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy🦄💜👼....

[Guest8901]

Dear Grandy, (Hi also to Deebi, Pepper, Lee, SN)

I think you have been a little quiet lately? I hope the ADs reduction has not been too difficult a transition for you. I see you have been doing some research on happiness ... interesting stuff.

And yes, you are quite correct about chocolate being bad for dogs - its actually quite toxic to them. Apparently, so too are macadamia and almond nuts, onion, garlic, grapes and raisins, and avocado seeds. Though I dont think most dogs would actually eat avocado seeds. And its advisable not to give dogs any cooked bones at all.

Sorry to hear you didnt feel up to darts today, thats a shame given it was cancelled last week. Work for you tomorrow though I guess? Was it tomorrow that you will see your MH nurse again? Sorry if I have that wrong, I seem to have been out of the loop a bit this past week, and while I was away. Still got some catching up to do.

You sound quite lonely these past couple of days Grandy. And Deebi has been busy with her visit to MIL and SIL, so its meant you've been a bit quieter than usual.

Anyway this is just a quick visit ... wanted you to know I appreciated your post on my thread last night. I was feeling pretty down, kind of empty I guess. Still do. And wanted you to know I was thinking of you, and have you in my thoughts. Hope you are sleeping now, and that you sleep well for the remainder of the night.

Talk again tomorrow I hope.

Amanda 💜🤗

[Peppermintbach]

Hi gorgeous Grandy (and a wave to all),

Loneliness sure is an awful feeling, although I’m glad you had a good day yesterday. If you will accept, I’m also offering a comforting hug to you as well 🙂

It made me smile when you talked about how you’re researching happiness. Thank you so much for sharing. I admire any commitment to learning 🙂 I like your research into the fleeting nature of it. Impermanence, yes?

I like to think of emotions as being on a continuum...on one end, there’s pure bliss/elation and on the other end, a very melancholic sadness...plus all kinds of emotions in between. I tend to think our emotions slide across the continuum...

Also, it’s okay, don’t even worry about it. I, and I’m thinking birdy and M_M feel the say, am not upset so it’s okay. No need to stress about it or apologise 😉

Love and care,

Peppy xoxo