Alone..Depressed..Sad..

[Ggrand]

Hi..I'm new here..just need to put my feeling down..no one to talk to makes depression and anxiety so hard...the last 4 days I have either been in bed crying or on the lounge crying..I can't seem to get out of this...I am becoming a prisioner in my own home as its getting progressively difficult to go out.. I have to go out Tuesdays so I do everthing on that day but it's like I'm holding my breathe all day until I get back to the safety of my home then I can let go and that starts the cycle again of spending the next 6 days at home either in bed or on the lounge sad and depressed...I really feel like just giving up.. My husband passed away 4 years on This coming Thursday. My children live 6 hours drive away and have small children so I don't see them that much.Bad mum and grandmum I am on there last visit i was pleased to see them but I just wanted them to go home. I feel so aweful and numb atm..

[demonblaster]

Dear Grandy 🌹

Nigh night darlin hope you feel a lot but if not at least a bit easier in the morning sweet friend.

Had a couple hrs sleep in the chair.

Be safe honey

Love always 💑💜👀👂🏻🤗

[Just Sara]

Hey Karen;

I'm reading and am with you in spirit. What you're experiencing is so very normal under the circumstances. 'Anyone' in your position would feel the same. I know it's hard. Whew, no words can make it better. Only time and courage...

You have all of us in your corner; guiding, encouraging and holding you up spiritually. Our prayers are with you...

My warm thoughts and a long protective hug;

Sara xo

[Guest8901]

Oh goodness me Grandy, no I am not upset WITH you, I am upset FOR you. And I'm certainly not angry with you. I'm sorry you thought that.

No ... I am angry and upset at what you've been through all your life. All that you've been forced to endure through no fault of your own.

I'm angry and upset for all the good people who suffer lifetime pain and mental anguish at the hands of others in a position of power.

I'm angry and upset for you Grandy, and for Just Sara (I continue to read your thread 😀) and for myself. I'm angry and upset with the profound injustices of life. But never angry at you.

How are you today Grandy? A little better I hope. I am thinking you would not have worked at the shop yesterday. Did you MHN visit you? Are you remembering to eat something nutritious? Calm and controlled breathing and some mindfulness is the order of the day I think. For me too. 👍

I must go now, a bust day with apts. 2 for me today. Had 2 for hubby yesterday. Sick of medical apts.

Hi also to Deebi, Pepper and Lee. 😘

I will try to check in later today. But I will be thinking of you until then.

Much love to you Grandy.

Amanda 💕🐶

[demonblaster]

Darling Grandy 🤗 Hi Mandy Sez and everyone

Sweetheart I've nearly finished a post on notes which I'll post a bit later lovey

🤗

[demonblaster]

Hi darling Grandy 🤗 and all.
Just popping in to see how you're going our dear friend⚘

Grandy for your sake I so hope that talking about some of the wicked cruelty you've had/have to endure is giving you even a small amount of release.
No hurry to reply anytime soon or at all hun. I'd rather hear how you're feeling which can also ease some pain.

Sweet I've been thinking about something that could be of help to you with more release and begin your journey of healing.
It's entirely your choice and there's no pressure to do this ok ☺

I'm wondering because
I know you like and feel comfortable with your MHN who sounds good for you if you think which I don't know if you have, that you might like to consider if not talking to show her what you've bravely opened up here about.

Keep breathing honey you don't have to.

The reason is I think while your walls are down it's a chance to release this pain and as we know stress needs an out. It'd be an escape of a major part of your pain

I can only guess how incredibly hard the torment you carry amongst so much other pain darling. I really do feel for you.

I'm suggesting this at this time because as much as I can't stand seeing you in such roar pain your walls are down as opposed to it being so much harder when you pull back up which I know you will because I've seen your strength and it'll be locked in again.

We and I as you can see will always be here for you and walk with you which ever direction you choose.

Love you very much Grandy and want you to know happiness. 💑🦄💜⚘. Always 👀👂🏻 😚

Staying with you at yours till you give me the royal boot ☺🌹

[Lee lee 73]

Hello dear Grandy,

So so sorry you are hurting my beautiful friend. Know that I'm thinking of you often and I hope your days get better real soon. You deserve happiness beautiful lady. ❤❤😘😘.

(Beautiful post Demonblaster 😘)

Sending you calming and peaceful thoughts Grandy 😚😚❤🌼🌼

Lee 🤗😏

[startingnew]

just sitting quietly here with you too little angel

hugs and hugs and a hand to hold if you would like

xoxoxoxoxoxo

[Peppermintbach]

Hi gorgeous Grandy,

There’s not much that I can add to what your caring friends have all said...

Like them, I’m also here with you. Gently holding your hand and giving it light squeezes...

You’re not alone in your pain. We are all here with you...many open hearts to help hold you a little in your pain...

Love and care,

Peppy xoxo

[demonblaster]

Grandy darling. If you feel up to it how bout we sit on your veranda 🤝 nice and warm under our blanky I'll make a hot pot of blaghh strong like you like tea and for later I'll get you a coffee frapp. Ebony Kya Destiny Eternity and all of us around you in silence or words which ever you need. Holding you.

My shoulders yours when ever you need

My 👀 watch upon you from the dawning of the sun to the next

My 👂🏻 are always open for you

My 💜 has you in it...

With the deepest friendship and love.

We're with you Grandy ... always.

You're never alone 😚⚘🤗

[Ggrand]

I would like that so very much Deebi, I’m just so completely messed up in my thoughts..