Dear Jess40,
Firstly, let us welcome you to the forums. Thank you for trusting us with your experiences and having the strength to share and seek assistance. Please feel free to express yourself and your concerns openly and without fear of judgement as this is a safe space.
We are sorry to hear that you are having to deal with so much right now and can understand why this is feeling so overwhelming. Although so much has happened and it must feel like you have lost so much, please know that there is help and your life is far from over, you are not alone.
Having to process these negative feelings daily and manage your concern for your children and marriage must take its toll, can we ask if you have discussed this with a professional possibly a GP or psychologist? If not, we would highly recommend doing so. Please consider contacting
Suicide Callback Service (call on 1300 659 467) if you ever feel the urge to act on your desire to “never wake up” or the negative thoughts become overwhelming.
May we offer our condolences for your loss and say how important it is to process the grief of your loss, not only your mothers passing but also the regret of being unable to attend due to uncontrollable circumstance. We believe our friends over at
Grief Line would be able to offer some great assistance with this.
Although leaving your job must have been difficult for you, as you have stated you felt unable to deal with people at present, we believe that coming away from your work to focus on your MH and family is a sensible move. Hopefully this will allow more time for you to focus on yourself and starting your journey of recovery.
If you would like to talk about your negative thoughts and other concerns, we are always here for you. Please contact Beyond Blue either via phone
1300 22 4636 or through
Beyond Blue Online Chat 24/7.
Please remember that if you feel you are in danger or you do not feel safe, please call emergency services on 000.
Warm regards
Sophie M
