My Dad

[KP_2014]

I lost my dad 18 November 2014. I have hurt every day since. 31, daddy's girl, married - facing losing my husband because of my grief. I can't even see that it's that bad, yeah I'm sad and just going say to day, but I can't even see the hurt I'm causing around me, or the spark that has gone from within myself.

i get upset, I get angry, it's unfair, I feel like lying in bed all day, I want to be alone... All of these things I think and feel. I have been told theres a two month waiting list for counselling in my area - great! I feel like I'm about to lose everything.... I supported my husband when he fell apart after dads death (anxiety and depression are his demons). So why am I left with the "to do" list?!

rant over - any and all advice welcome. 

[Cymru]

I hesitated to mention what I am experiencing. I didn't want KP to feel her grief any less painful ... I couldn't think of another of saying it was OK that she feel sad. I reacted to a friend who offered that time heals ... I don't want the pain to go ... it is all that I'm left! My doctor put it better that grief is a cup drank in small sips. I had told him I hated thinking about the future ... because it would be void of my son. I can only stress that KP takes what help is available. It won't change things ... just gives you that tiny extra strength.  

[Cymru]

thank you