Hello,
Welcome and thank you for reaching out to us.
I'm so sorry for your losses, I really do know how hard it is to keep your head above water when you are going through so much grief. I am in a better place now, but 14 years ago I was a broken mess.
How are you managing things? Do you have a counsellor or at least a friend or family member you can turn to? It really is tough going solo with all those emotions to deal with.
I lost my best friend too, in an accident at the age of 42. I have lost all my family now, one in an accident and the rest to cancer, I am a cancer survivor myself with 50 years+ experience of major depression. I am letting you know this to assure you that whatever you want to talk about will be understood.
I am now in my 60s and it took me many years to figure out why I had to go through so much. When I finally realised what the lesson was, it was easier to reframe the experiences. It was so that I could help others who are going through similar situations. Without my experiences, how could I possibly know what you are going through? It has stretched my ability to empathise with others, know how to help through experience rather than a text book. It is likely too soon for you to see it from this perspective, but there may come a day when you can.
I will be here for you whenever you need to talk and will do my best to help in whatever way I can.
Take good care of yourself,
indigo 💜
