Losing My Father a month back due to Covid

[BangALang]

I lost my Dad a month back on 21st May, 2021 due to covid. He had retired from his job a couple of months back and was planning to enjoy his retired life. He has spent most of the time is a different state of India due to nature of his job. And now when it was his time and our time to be together he started showing symptoms on 22nd April,2021.
he was taken to the hospital on 26th April and was tested negative on 5th of May. But after that his lungs were so severly affected that he had to be put on Ventilator.
He never came back home.
I really miss him. I could not even see him in his last time because I am in Australia and could not travel because of the restrictions.
I feel a huge gaping hole inside of me that gives me a sinking feeling 24/7. I dont know what to do. I cant cry to let the feelings out instead I always think about him and I feel as if I am sinking. I cant sleep at nights. If someone can please help me out.

thanks

[jtjt_4862]

Hi BangALang,

Welcome to the forums, it's great to have you here. My condolences to you and your family for the loss of your father. I can't imagine the amount of pain and sadness that you and your family is going through right now. May I kindly suggest giving Beyond Blue a call on 1300 22 4636 and let them know what you're going through, and they'll be able to provide you the support needed for dealing with grief and loss.

Stay strong my friend. I'm here for you if you need someone to talk to as well. Take care.

Jt

[Hanna3]

Hi BangALang,

I am so sorry to hear about your father and that you couldn't be there with him. That is so hard. I lost my mother when I was young and she died in the hospital while my father and I were trying to get there in time but she died before we made it there... I've always been so upset there was nobody with her at the time, so I have some sense of what you must be going through. It's so hard to lose your Mum or Dad... and I know there is nothing I can say to make it any easier for you... it does ease with time but for now you have to allow yourself to grieve and feel dreadful... and cry or whatever you need to do to get the feelings out - but it will take a long time until you pull out.

Do you have other family members with you to give mutual support, or else good friends who will understand?

Truly I am so sorry that you lost your beloved father to this dreadful virus. Can I send a big virtual hug?

Do come by if you would like to talk more - I am in and out today but people here will offer support. Kindest wishes to you..