Hi Shelley,
I dont really know why rain sounds good either. Perhaps for me it is partly because I grew up on the land, and with droughts etc a common thing, it was always such a relief to get rain. But even now I still find rain a comforting sound. And I've always loved getting out in the paddocks after rain, and just wading around and listening to the sounds of water as it rushes along on its merry way.
Yes, thanks Shelley, I had a better night last night. Maybe your thoughts and prayers have helped. I am sorry that you are feeling so physically 'yuk', and I hope you start to feel much better very soon. Did you see that Thread that was opened in your honour? Last time I looked, you hadnt posted to it, so I wondered if you'd even seen it. It is in the depression area, and its called "Shelley Anne". If you havent already, then you should read it. I hope it helps to make you feel better about yourself and your affect on others.
In answer to your question of whether I often feel worthless, yes I do. I often feel as though I have no purpose in life and that I dont really know why I am here, and that nobody really needs me. I do feel a little less worthless now that I have a job again though. It is quite a big thing for me, as it means that I can at least feel a bit useful. So it is very important for me to have a job. And I do enjoy working! Had quite a long day yesterday. Well, not long for full time workers, but it was a 5 hour day for me, which is quite long. I need to be careful not to aggravate my injury by overdoing things. So a quiet day for me today. I actually just got a phone call from the Nursing Home to let me know that my friend Shirley is going out today with a family member who is travelling through. So I dont have to go in to visit her today. I will probably visit her on Friday now instead. It is good that she has someone else visiting her today.
Hugs to you Shelley, and I wish I could take away that 'yuk' feeling.
Sherie xx
