Hi,
I have been diagnosed with depression 4 weeks ago. I’m taking antidepressants,which have been increased, and I’ve started talking to a psychologist. I have suffered with anxiety for the last 15 years.
I do not know what is going on, I have no idea what’s happening to me, let alone how to begin to fix it, and I am scared... really scared.
I find it hard to find words when I speak, I seem to be on a delay when I have to verbally reply to someone, it’s almost like people think I’m not going to answer. I have no concentration, it took me 30 mins to order a pizza and I have no focus. I haven’t been to work in four weeks, and I cannot believe that I have no idea when I will be able to.
I am an empty shell, no emotions, and that is so far from who I am normally that I don’t really know who this person is who is care taking of my body while the real me is away.
Is this normal in the world of depression that I now find myself in . I have absolutely no control over what’s happening to me and it’s frightening.
I don’t know what to do... do I try to push myself to do things that I don’t want to do, or do I wait and see what happens. I have no idea how to accept something when I don’t know what to expect from it next.
Thanks for the opportunity to put these feelings down on paper, as such, I just don’t know what else to do with them.
