What would you do?

[mocha delight]

About 3/4 appointments ago including this Tuesdays appointment I mentioned to my psychologist that I had a red flag from when I was 22/23 that I didn’t follow through with basically and she said we didn’t have to talk about until I was ready to do so yet she asked if I was ready to talk about it in the very next appointment. So I felt like I was now forced to speak about it to my mum yesterday and my gp today when I was not quite 100% ready to do so yet 😢. And after talking to my gp who I’ve known since I was at least 19 (I’m 32 now) so she knows me very well she said if I wanted to either take a break from psych sessions, see a different psych (which she said she’d be happy to do a referral to another one or go back to the current psych she would support me in whatever decision I make. I just don’t know what to do as feeling majorly lost right now. Has anyone else had this kind of experience or similar? Any tips or advice ect ect ect I’d really appreciate thanks all.

[Chunty]

I have just sent in a post and am waiting for a reply Has that post got lost or rejected?

[Sophie_M]

Dear Chunty, 

We apologies that the post did not come through straight away but it has now been posted to the forum. We take moderation of the forums serisously and making this a safe and welcoming space is our priority. For this reason sometimes it can take some time for posts to be published to the site. Whilst this can be difficult please know that we endeavour to make this as quick a process as possible. 

Thank you for being such an active and engaged member of the community.

Kind regards, 

Sophie M

[Chunty]

Thank you very much Sophie for your patience and understanding.I realize having BPD tends to make me impulsive. I must try to control that behavior, as it could land me in trouble.You are right I like to be active in the community and like to support others as well. I feel.empathy for the problems they are confronted with. Best wishes to you 🤗

Chunty

[Guest_1643]

welcome chunty and thanks for sharing and supporting others here.

[Chunty]

Hi Mocha, I was just browsing thru and came across your post. I did,nt quite comprehend it, but what I did pick up was your struggling with your decisions and confusion. It must be really hard and frustrating for you. I dont want to advise you as I dont want to cause anymore chaos and confusion for you.I will express my experiences however.Personally all the different strategies and psychological techniques that I open mindedly tried did nothing for me. I got stirred up in one session and walked out in tears. The only technique that helps me is Distraction, mainly utilizing things that make you feel happy. I had a Counsellor from my palliative care team, and she was exceptionally brilliant. She unfornately left as she finished her placement. Where Im concerned, I feel as I having clinical mental health issues I prefer to be under Psychiatric care, because in reality medication plays an important role. I have after 2 years of searching and finally found a Psychiatrist. I have had one session and found him to be very experienced and caring. I suffer from Major Depression, Anxiety and BPD as well as a terminal illness.I was actually surprised to learn that that there are some doctors that do care. I am sorry I cant give you advise because of all the complexities you are confronted with. If you believe in Jesus, surrender yourself to him, he will look after you and guide. Pardon me for my spellings and I wish you all the best. I would like to know how you are going. But no pressure ok? Chunty