Was getting better but it's gone to crap in an instant

[Black Bubblegum]

Hi everyone, 

I've posted in this group a few times, mostly during Covid lockdown times where I lost my job due to redundancy and the loneliness and isolation which I'll admit I didn't handle as well as I should have. But with some help from people on here plus family and talking things out, things really started feeling like they were turning around.

But just as I start to feel happy in myself, another hit again. I had my most recent Covid jab around September last year and then finally it caught up with me in December, causing me to miss my oldest friends wedding. From there I just felt lethargic and I went for a blood test in March, everything came back great but they saw an anomaly, so I went for another blood test which I discussed the results yesterday, despite being in otherwise pretty good health for my age of 40, I now apparently have Type 1 diabetes. Apparently they have no idea how people get it as this is autoimmune not influenced by lifestyle or external factors, apparently I could've gotten it from my Covid vaccinations, or it could have been as a by product of Covid itself, either way it's now my problem. 

With everything going to crap in the world nowadays, from the cost of living to the diminished quality of life, I've really tried to be stoic and take it as it comes, even with this the few people I've told I've maintained a positive outlook saying I'll use this as an opportunity to be the healthiest I've ever been in spite of it and not to worry, but inside all I feel is yet another punch to the guts, more stinking bloody money down the hole and another thing that's going wrong in my life. 

At what point, is any of this worth continuing for? I know there's people that have it worse and I've always tried to maintain perspective, but this honestly just feels like another hit and another loss. I just want to have at least a little while where things don't go wrong, y'know? I don't feel like that's being greedy. 

[Bob_22]

Hi Black Bubblegum,

Not being greedy at all. Everyone deserves this. Being diagnosed with a new medical condition is quite distressing, especially something that you have to live with indefinitely. A lot of it unfortunately, comes down to patience and acceptance. These are however very difficult things to achieve even with lots of time. I would recommend consulting the doctor your seeing about finding ways you manage to live with this disease in the least restrictive way possible. Work with them to find what best suits you. I would also consider seeing a psychologist to help you manage some of the grief that comes from being newly diagnosed with a chronic illness. They make a world of difference.

Bob