Want to feel better

[Christa1]

Hello

I am new here. Decided to join as I am feeling a bit alone with this illness at the moment.

I have struggled with depression for many, many years and have been taking medication for it for the past 10 years, which has enabled me to keep on living, but not necessarily happily.

I am currently on a month's annual leave, and have 2 weeks of it left. This week I have been feeling very flat & have been having persecutory dreams. This is probably in anticipation of having to return to the 'daily grind' soon, which I dread.

I have some good things happening in my life at the moment as well, but I don't seem to be able to feel the happiness that these things usually bring. I find that I rarely feel happiness about anything. I feel trapped in this life.

It would be good to hear how other people obtain contentedness in their lives.

Regards,

Christa1

[incubus]

I just wanted to comment that I would rather be on a rollercoaster ride with the love of my life than on a paddle-steamer with someone else.  Maybe he will feel the same.

[Christa1]

That's a lovely thought. Thanks Incubus.

[geoff]

dear Christa, sometimes the psych gets us to accept or try to accept our current circumstances first, and once we do this then slowly the past can just slot in.

It's like telling a small child to ride a motorbike even before he /she can ride a push bike, the chances are very small, too scary and totally puts them off, a strange analogy but the same principle. L Geoff. x

[Christa1]

Thank you Geoff.

[Katy100]

Hi Christa,

Would you be able to give us some more information about your work ... what sort of stress do you face there?  

[Christa1]

Hi Katy

I'm sorry, but I would prefer not to say. I live in a small community & don't want to be identified on here - particularly as there is impending legal stuff with my ex & I don't want this used against me.

Regards,

Christa1