Unmotivated to do anything

[Vix8Six]

Hi, 

I have been feeling so lazy, unmotivated to do anything. Nothing interests me anymore. I make excuses to not go out anywhere or catch up with friends or family. I tend to cancel my shifts for work. All I want to do is lounge around my house eat and watch tv. 

I am a support worker and I am studying towards the disability sector  and youth/children/ family Intervention. It’s an effort to complete my studies as I cannot sit still at a computer for long and it bores me. Then I get up and eat! 

I live in a prime spot across from the beach, I am taking where I live for granted. I have a van where sometimes I take out and go exploring on the coast lay in the back and chill, I go on missions to search for waterfalls and been meaning to go on camping trips….But I feel it’s in the hard basket to even go and do any of that. I have joined yoga and Pilates but I cancel my classes also. When I socialise with my friends drinking beer, I over do it and binge drink to the point where I’m soo drunk and hungover over the next day I definitely don’t get out of bed the whole day. I then feel dirty on myself and spend all day ordering Uber eats. I always say to myself I’m going to be healthy and go for beach walks and join a new class but I then last for a week and fail. Im very inconsistent about keeping things on track. I can never stick to anything. I just feel like a failure, wasting my life and having no direction with myself. Everything is an effort and I can’t be arsed doing anything! How the hell do I get out of this continuous sink hole? 

[therising]

Hi Vix8Six

It can be so hard to relate to people who express in some way 'I have no energy to do anything' until we feel that feeling for our self. Then it becomes completely relatable. Feeling next to no energy can even become depressing at times, something I can relate to. It's one of my triggers for depression. The inner dialogue can become pretty brutal.

As a 52yo gal, one of the ways I've some to simplify is by simply addressing energy itself. Some would say it comes in 3 basic forms - mental, physical and natural or what some may call soulful. Each to their own.

Mentally, there can be a lot of factors such as a lack of exciting stimulating work (the work is boring with no 'charge' in it that you can really feel), being involved in mentally draining situations or with mentally draining people, a lack of exciting things to look forward to or envision through the imagination/lack of difference (repeating the same ventures as opposed to adding ventures or adventuring) and the list goes on.

Physically, we gotta be putting energy in, in order to conduct more of it. Easier said that done when you've got next to nothing to start with. Chemical energy/reactions are definitely a biggy. Unromantic version of who we are is a big bag of chemical reactions. Whether we're feeling the side effects of dopamine or a lack of it or the side effects of all that chemistry in a bottle from a drinking session the night before, can definitely feel the chemistry at times. Blood tests are often a good start when it comes to getting to the bottom of some chemical imbalances or deficiencies.

Naturally, I believe we're born to feel. Can feel what's there and what's not there. This is where it becomes about wonder. 'I wonder why I'm feeling a lack of energy. What's caused it? If I look back, can I spot a lead up to it? What could some of the influences be? Should I see a doctor about it? Did I not give inspiration much thought at all (how energsing it can actually be) until now, now that I can't feel it?'. So many questions when it comes to energy or a serious lack of it. I've found one of the greatest questions of all can be 'How do I start to generate more of it to the point where I begin to feel it or feel myself excited by it?'.