Hello dear people. I wonder if anyone agree if im doing thr right thing. In the last 2 days i have completely withdrawn from other people, except i look forward to see my priest once a week.im barely eating, because its hard to chew, eat and breathe.im tired all the time and want to be left alone. In fact im at peace when my carer goes out for a few hours.i cant eat much because im nauseated. I cant be bothered talking and argueing. I do my best to please him because i dont want to talk much. Im very tired and worn. I dont care about anything anymore. Im too tired to be concerned and worried about anything. Im not interested in going out as it takes alot out of me. I feel like a robot kind of numb and had enough.i feel no one can help me anymore. Im 74 yrs old with a terminal illness, slow but sure going downhill and ive given up fighting.i feel like im an oxygen thief, taking up space and lingering on i know im going to die eventually, but when. I have only opened up to you kind souls,as you are not judgemental. I dont even feel like talking counsellors or doctors. They cant do anything All im hanging on is my faith in Jesus. Ive lost trust in humans and prefer animals.Am i sinking into the dephs of depression or is that my way of coping? Im open to some ideas. God Bless. Chunty
