Tired soul.

[Yelah90]

I can't explain it but I'm tired not in the sleep way, my soul is tired.
My friend and I made plans yesterday but she went to out with other people.
I'm trying my hardest to keep getting support, but when is it enough?
I went out for a bushwalk I didn't want to but I was going to let my dad down
So I force myself to go.
All I'm saying is when is it okay to give in, stop trying, because feels li k e I'm just stuck here. Rotting away here anyways.
But I'll keep on trying.

[Sophie_M]

Hey Yelah90,

Thanks for reaching out here to our friendly community, we understand that it takes a lot of strength to be so open and honest with how you're feeling. It sounds like things must be really tiring and exhausting and we're really sorry to hear that you're in such a tough space right now. But please know that this a safe, non-judgemental place to talk about these thoughts and feelings, and our community is here to support you through this difficult time.

If you feel up to it, we'd also really encourage you to reach out to our Beyond Blue Support Service, which is available 24/7 by phone on 1300 22 4636 or on Webchat 3pm-12am AEST on our website: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport. One of our friendly counsellors will be able to talk through these feelings with you and can offer support, advice and referrals.   

You are not alone here, and we hope that you keep us updated on how you're going whenever you feel ready.
 

[SarahZ]

Hi Yelah90,

Thanks for reaching out - we are super grateful for it.

I'm so sorry that you are feeling this way; it must feel super exhausting. I have also experienced times where I feel really overwhelmed and emotionally drained, which makes a lot of activities really difficult to engage with. During those times, constantly engaging with people felt tiring and effortful. I figured I needed to recharge myself with some alone time and doing what I enjoyed doing most like watching youtube, eating an entire tub of ice-cream , or even just listening to music and lying on the bed doing nothing. However, after I felt recharged and like myself again, I realised being in company of the people I loved most charged me with even more energy. Is there a particular activity you do alone that always makes you super happy?

Also do you think your dad would have been upset if you decided not to go on the bush walk? Or rephrasing that question, do you think your dad would have been upset if he knew you were feeling so defeated and tired out? It's great that you are trying your hardest getting support, thats always one of the most difficult steps. If you aren't already, have you maybe considered seeking professional support? I see Sophie_M has linked you some great contacts, which might be super helpful.

Always here to talk if you feel up to it.

Sending you positive thoughts and wishing you all the best!