Lonely and trapped and no way out

[Lucyloo222]

Hi I’m not sure why I’m posting here I guess I’m searching for help because I’m not really sure what to do anymore.. I’m 24 and I’ve worked on projects for the last few years so move to different remote areas all the time.. This in itself creates a lot of loneliness as I’ve found it’s inevitable that you lose touch with your friends and family back home.. people move on with their lives while your away.. I always had my long term partner working away with me though so I was happy.. we then broke up and I got into a relationship straight away because I made a mistake and felt I couldn’t be alone.. I was then alienated from everyone I knew.. I moved away and never spoke to my friends or family and isolated myself completely with this person.. He gave me a job and looked after me and i didn’t know how to look after myself so I stayed because I was scared of being alone.. anyway I finally came up with the courage to break it off because I knew it wasn’t right and now I am completely alone.. I feel stupid because atleast I had someone to talk to even if it wasn’t a good relationship.. I’m now back living with my parent and it is a hostile dangerous place for me that I don’t feel safe in.. but I can’t leave as I’m not working anymore. i can’t find somewhere to live that is affordable for just me.. I have slowly isolated myself from everyone by one way or another and now I don’t have anyone in my life that I can talk to about this.. I have no one to help me and I’m not sure how to help myself.. I’ve made so many mistakes and lost so many people.. I can’t think one 1 person that would notice I was gone if I disappeared tomorrow.. I feel trapped and don’t see a way out of this

[Sophie_M]

Hi Lucyloo222,

Welcome to the forums, we are so glad that you have reached out here today- we know that it is not an easy thing to do but it's so important that you have. We're really sorry to hear what you're going through right now, but please know that you don't have to go through this alone. You've come to a safe, non-judgemental space to talk about your thoughts and feelings, and our wonderful community is here to provide you with as much support, advice and conversation as you need. We are also currently reaching out to you via email as we are worried about you.

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