Tired lonely and feeling like giving up

[Newnico1]

I have battled my deppression anxiety and ptsd for years. Im 28 I have no qualifications no job and I feel like every day is a massive impossible mountain. My ptsd sends me into disassociation and dispair and my anxiety attacks and deppressive cycles are never ending. My day pretty much consists of trying to muster the courage to get out of bed and have breakfast. I also live in a supported residence which facilitates over 50 people in total though I dont think there are more than about 35 people living here currently. I am feeling the loneliness keenly this time of year as everyone is busy. My ndis worker is saying that I may have been misdiagnosed and is keen to see if bipolar might be what I am suffering as my moods fluctuate rapidly and with little to no warning!

[smallwolf]

Hi and welcome to beyond blue. For some, this can be a lonely time of year. You see people on the tv and you don't feel part of it. An outsider. Despite being in a room full of people you are invisible. I am saddened to hear that you feel this way. Last week I attended a blue service because I am not a big fan of Christmas.

Perhaps you could tell me a little about your days. You said that you muster the courage to get up and have breakfast. To you it might not feel like it, but at my worst these were positives my psychologist wanted me to recognise.

People here will also be chatting in the cafe section tomorrow - come back then and find another bunch of users to chat with. It might not be the same as being together in person. yet know that we are all together, accepting and supporting each other.

Tell me more about your story? I am listening.

Tim

[withlove]

Hi Newnico1,

I am sorry to hear about your difficulties. Life is very challenging. Sometimes more so for some than others. But life can also be very beautiful. When we are feeling down it can sometimes be very hard to see the beauty so we have to start with small efforts to find the miracles that exist and sometimes pretend we are children seeing a flower for the first time. When you wake up in the morning and before you go to sleep try to spend a few minutes each day writing or even thinking about the beauty and miracles of life and be grateful for these. It also helps to spend some time in nature if possible feeling the warmth of the sun, the peacefullness of the trees, the infinity of the sky, the magic of it all. When negative thoughts arise, try not to give them too much attention, don't fight them, just be aware of them and let them pass through as if you are watching a movie. Even if it is an unpleasant movie, it will pass and you will be fine, they are only passing thoughts. Remember nature created you perfectly with infinite love. You are eternally connected to nature. You are always loved and never alone.

[Curleee]

I agree with Smallwoof, if you got out of bed, sound the trumpets! I went through a period at the start of the year like u r experiencing. I could get out of bed by 11am, but having a shower and getting off the couch was difficult for many many months. I am now back working a few days a week. My psychologist has taught me about thinking of it like a bell curve.... the spike and extreme emotions will eventually come down (even if only for an initial patch).

Sending u hugs in the traditionally challenging day for u, for myself and many others in the community. Strength in unity
Mel