Years ago I was diagnosed and successfully treated for Gender Dysphoria which involved surgically transitioning from a male to female. The law at that time forbade me from being married so our family life was destroyed and I had to divorce my darling wife. It affected our two children inevitably. I became suicidal several times and was compulsorily hospitalized by the police on one occasion. All that is long past. For about 10 years I loved dance exercise classes and had great times with the girls. I also did bellydance, Polynesian dance and my own style of solo freestyle dance. I have had many interests and activities in the past. I am a good archer and play the autoharp. I have a degree as a Registered Nurse and was also a Mental Health Nurse and Counselor for Drug and Alcohol Addiction. But I retired from nursing in 2000. I live alone with my doggie and have no real friends. On 2 Oct I turned 80 and it was a total non-event. I stopped watching TV as it depressed me and find it hard to put on a CD and listen to some music. I want to dance so badly but I just can't get to do it. I want to do archery and play my autoharp but find no motivation. I take my doggie for walks twice every day in the lovely bush around where I live and I am physically slim and fit. My doggie, a poodle, is over 14 and not in the best of health and my die soon. I will lose my only friend. I guess my life is coming to an end also.
