Hi all
After listening to advice (or reading on here I should say) I went to see a counsellor. Why didin't I do that months ago. She was great and I have my 2nd appointment tomorrow to teach me techniques on how to deal with stress.
Work got so unbearable I applied for another job and got it. What a boost to my confidence. I know sudden decisions should probably not be made in times of stress/depression but a weight lifted off me.
it also means relocating interstate and boy has the stress hit. As I type I have tingly arm, bloated feeling, indegestion, can't sleep, concentrate etc but I know it is for the best so I am just powering on as best as I can.
I think going to see a counsellor and talking things through also made my husband realise there was a major issue so he has been more understanding.
As in a previous post I mentioned through all of this my normal brain left me and I did stupid things - like drink and drive. Something I hate and still cannot fathom what the hell Iwas thinking. Well my case is up at the Magistrates in 2 weeks so Im trying not to go into meltdown with that. I know I am disqualified and will be hit with a hefty fine but thats nothing compared to what could have happened. That as I mentioned was my wake up call that the Lisa I was before was slipping away from me.
I feel like I am starting to get the old me back. Baby steps I know and boy is it a daily struggle but with the support from here, family and I finanlly told my firend (who was amazing ) then I think there is light at the end of the tunnel.
