As the title says I never thought that I would be at the stage in my life where it is all just so hard. I have met many people who have suffered from mental illness and my little brother has Tourettes, ADD and OCD so i thought dealing wih my own depression and anxiety wouldn't be as hard.
So here it all is Im 21 years old I work full time doing the job I always want to do whilst growing up. In the last year I have had a relationship breakdown with my first "proper boyfriend" who i thought was my world but very quickly turned into an abusive alcoholic who I was afraid of. I am currently about to lose my job due to begin diagnosed with depression and anxiety and am seen as unsuitable to do my job even though my work feedback says I am an amazing worker. I have been fighting this decision since the day it happened yet I feel like everyone is against me. At the start of the year I met the most amazing man who has been so helpful for me but lately due to everything that is happening all we seem to do is fight and it is killing me inside. Im always upset then angry I wake up with a headache and go to sleep with one it has just become such a normal part of my life.
I am starting to hat the person this has turned me into I exercise all the time I do everything right. I am the person that makes sure everyone else is ok and never get to think about myself. In the most recent weeks my partner has also been diagnosed with depression and separation anxiety( as we live states apart)
Even now while typing this im crying and just dont know what to do 😞
