The warmest of welcomes to you at a time in your life where you're questioning so much.
While there can be plenty of tough questions to answer (in ways that are satisfying), I think one of the toughest would have to be 'What kind of guide do I need in my life right now?'. A mental or psychological one, like a therapist? One who can explain the nature of life? Someone who can lead us to better understand ourself and how we tick on a variety of levels and therefor why we can suffer at times? Can involve a massive list to choose from, so I won't go on. When people suggest 'You need to get some help', I think what helps the most (to begin with) is being pointed in the direction of exactly the kind of guide we need.
'Completely lost, at a standstill, with absolutely zero sense of direction' is a definite vibe that indicates an obvious lack of guidance. Not a fan of that feel myself, as it can hold so many challenging mixed emotions such as aggravation, stress, a depressing level of hopelessness, frustration, intolerance, loneliness and so much more. While it may sound a bit airy fairy, out of all the possible appointments in life we definitely do have 'Traveler' would be one we can't deny. As we travel through life's landscape, through the dark parts, the sometimes exciting parts, the hills and valleys, uncharted parts and everywhere else, we're going to get lost on occasion. There are times in life where we need to stop and ask for directions. How that sounds will depend on where we are in life and what we're facing. Whether it sounds like 'What do I need to do right now?' or 'Where do I go from here?' or 'I'm completely lost. How do I get out of this place of sufferance?', I find the people who help shed light are some of the best guides. Sometimes we don't necessarily need a sense of direction, sometimes we just need to see exactly where we are, for a start.
