Depression

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School starts up again tomorrow. Safe to say I do not want to come back. To be fair, I don't think anyone wants to come back, but I like to imagine I am suffering over it the most. It makes me feel good when I know I'm hurting more than others. I hav... View more

School starts up again tomorrow. Safe to say I do not want to come back. To be fair, I don't think anyone wants to come back, but I like to imagine I am suffering over it the most. It makes me feel good when I know I'm hurting more than others. I have holiday homework I haven't done, big deal, right? Well... it is. I haven't read our assigned book for English Advanced, and my work for the book content/themes of it, which I can't finish tonight, because I haven't even read the book yet LMAO. I also have to work on my ancient history essay (which, might I add, is an actual assignment that counts towards my grade), but am I really willing to write 1500 words of rubbish I don't care about? No, not really- that's why I'm here. I like to complain about things I could've easily changed if I weren't lazy. To tell the truth, it really hurts me when I think about how there is something fundamentally wrong with me compared to everyone else. There is nothing I can do about it; I can only accept it and move on with my life, but it's so, so, so hard to. I grew up feeling different, and I was always aware of it, but it never truly affected me until it did. Until the years of being a social outcast of a child caught up to me in some of the most integral years of my development, teenagehood. Not being properly socialised as a kid will always come back to bite you in the ass, and I wish I knew that. I wish I were normal. I wish I could deal with my school problems like a normal kid. But I'm not normal, I will never be normal, and I can only sit and mull over my life until it ends. Or, get help. I could get help, I could just reach out and be done with it. I'm too lazy to do that either, or too scared, it's getting hard to tell nowadays. I don't just attribute this way of thinking to my life, but rather to my brain itself- there is clearly something wrong with my brain. I am probably neurodivergent or extremely depressed or both. And yet, despite it all, to everyone else, I will always be completely well-adjusted mentally! Sure, I'm an antisocial weird freak who is addicted to her phone and is incompetent and lazy and a living, breathing failure (these are not all my words), but I'm just a normal teenage girl. I love my life. God, I love living.

Struggling

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I'm really struggling with depression at the moment due to my illness

Depression & Psychotic symptoms

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Hi I have been psychotic for a few years now. At night I hear lady singing and touching my blanket to wake me up! Obviously no one is in my house and that scares the living $hit out of me! I regularly hear ghost trying to crawl into my bedroom, just ... View more

Hi I have been psychotic for a few years now. At night I hear lady singing and touching my blanket to wake me up! Obviously no one is in my house and that scares the living $hit out of me! I regularly hear ghost trying to crawl into my bedroom, just like horror film. Once or twice, I managed to confront frightening voice and face it - nobody was there! Anger is more useful than fear - basic psych 101 - arnie said that in that awful terminator film. I am on anti psych meds and regular therapy. There is no cure so I have accepted my condition. BUT what can I do about Depression which I hear is treatable! Just looking for ways people here have perhaps found way LONG TERM to keep their depression in check or even beat it ? Please share your experiences... Thanks in advance.

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Hi i’ve recently been broken up with about 8 months ago now and i keep getting panic attacks day and night about not being able to get back together and i spoke to him about it and he said he wishes my life gets better and continues to block me, i ha... View more

Hi i’ve recently been broken up with about 8 months ago now and i keep getting panic attacks day and night about not being able to get back together and i spoke to him about it and he said he wishes my life gets better and continues to block me, i had a boyfriend at the time that knew i missed him and i recently broke up with him because my mental health was getting the best of me and i feel horrible for leaving him im not quite sure what to do now im stuck in a depression state.

Is it okay to want to get another job

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Hi How are you? Is it okay to want to look for another job. Is it not grateful to want a change from doing the same job for 15 years? Plus too, as nice as the bosses are, they're not really about improvement. All they do is just internal stuff, they ... View more

Hi How are you? Is it okay to want to look for another job. Is it not grateful to want a change from doing the same job for 15 years? Plus too, as nice as the bosses are, they're not really about improvement. All they do is just internal stuff, they do do work, just reinvent the wheel, or another way to do the work.They don't do anything to help the customers, I'm amazed we haven't had complaints.Am I not grateful for just staying in same job, I proberly will as I'm not good at getting a job. Too many people. I think I'm the only one at work dissappointed in the bosses, just sad, & I am trying to do other stuff to take my mind off work, but I think I just need to get another job. At least try too - to find sonewhere where the people like learning, their not lazy & work has a purpose. My workplace isn't going to adapt, update or improve

My husband's depression and anxiety is affecting me

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My husband's depression and anxiety is really affecting me badly. I can tell by his body language that he is spiralling into a depression again however he denies it. It really upsets me because no matter what I do or say, nothing makes a difference. ... View more

My husband's depression and anxiety is really affecting me badly. I can tell by his body language that he is spiralling into a depression again however he denies it. It really upsets me because no matter what I do or say, nothing makes a difference. I feel really upset and anxious about it today, normally I can cope with it by getting on with my life and being as kind as I can to him. But today I want to scream at him. I won't though because I know that nothing will make any difference. I just have to survive some how and wait for days, weeks, months for his depression to lift. I just feel like sitting down now and having a big cry, I feel so helpless.

So Alone and Numb

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Numb and so tired of fighting the constant battle in my head. It doesn’t end and I’m exhausted now. How does other pull themselves out of a funk that seems so deep and dark? I suffer from depression, cptsd, anorexia, bulimia, anxiety. I feel like I j... View more

Numb and so tired of fighting the constant battle in my head. It doesn’t end and I’m exhausted now. How does other pull themselves out of a funk that seems so deep and dark? I suffer from depression, cptsd, anorexia, bulimia, anxiety. I feel like I just waste everyone in my medical team time and what ever I try the darkness grows into more hate towards myself. Not suicidal but just incredibly numb

Following the breadcrumbs to improve mental health

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Hi everyone, The last few months have been somewhat confusing as I have discovered more about my mental / physical health and how it has all been connected. I had not put the pieces together, I am not sure why, it seems so obvious now. I have dealt w... View more

Hi everyone, The last few months have been somewhat confusing as I have discovered more about my mental / physical health and how it has all been connected. I had not put the pieces together, I am not sure why, it seems so obvious now. I have dealt with Dysthymia since about 12 and Major Depression since about 14 but was not diagnosed until my 40s and had no idea that had been the problem all along. I knew I wasn't like everyone else but thought I was just born that way. Back then mental health was not a subject that was openly discussed and the signs mostly went unrecognised and untreated. I had about 10 years of talk therapy with a social worker that helped immensely. I have had a sensitive digestive system for a good portion of my life, not so much that I sought treatment, just things like indigestion with certain foods, bloating and the like. I suppose I thought everyone had those types of issues. I have also had nervous system reactions over the past 15 years, like involuntary shaking in certain situations, that I had put down to getting older and being less resilient having been through a lot of difficult challenges. I have been seeing a psychotherapist who also does somatic work (turns out you were right mmmekitty, I did need some more help). The first session of somatic work, in this case EFT (tapping), brought up a deep and long standing belief that I did not deserve to be helped. The emotions were buried so deep that I was not even aware of them. After that session things went haywire physically for a few days and took some weeks to start to settle. Being the type of person who needs to have an understanding of what is happening and why, I have been reading many books on the symptoms I have had. That is when I began to join the dots about how interconnected by mental and physical health actually were. It has required a lot of processing on my part, and an acknowledgement of what I have been consciously unaware of, but it has been necessary to finding a way forward. This will be an ongoing journey as new symptoms show up that need to be looked at. I know now that there is a lot of unreleased trauma in my body that is a contributing factor in not healing mentally or physically and I know now what needs to be done to improve. There is only so much that the medical profession can do, I believe the rest of the responsibility lies with us in digging deeper to find the causes and the answers. In many ways, that in itself becomes empowering. Take care all.indigo

Emotional Blunting and Tackling Depression Sober

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I've suffered with Depression my whole life, this includes suicidal ideation and feelings of hopelessness. I have managed it with self medication and have managed to mask it for a long time as a functional person (exhausting). The symptoms have effec... View more

I've suffered with Depression my whole life, this includes suicidal ideation and feelings of hopelessness. I have managed it with self medication and have managed to mask it for a long time as a functional person (exhausting). The symptoms have effected my ability to interact with the world around me in ways that are meaningful and my relationships with family and friends are sometime effected with a distancing or feeling of not belonging - I isolate and am critical of myself. It's become hard of late as I recently went to hospital after a drunken suicide plan "Practiced" one evening. I am sober now and facing these familiar feelings of hopelessness ... now without my historic coping mechanism (Which is actually going really well) but like these feelings are horrid and draining and isolating despite being surrounded by good people and a great family and partner. It's like the colour has been drained from my life and I HATE it....

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Hi Am slowly getting better & have slowly realized to give up on ideas happening at work...for the simple reason that my colleagues are not proactive. Took me 15 years to figure it out.I've been listening to podcasts & Jay Shetty & mindful ones at wo... View more

Hi Am slowly getting better & have slowly realized to give up on ideas happening at work...for the simple reason that my colleagues are not proactive. Took me 15 years to figure it out.I've been listening to podcasts & Jay Shetty & mindful ones at work which has helped.What my sin is, is that some of my colleagues I think have big egos & when they're being egotiscal they're abit awful & feel guilty that I've given up on them on doing anything & my sin is that I think they're useless. That's bad isn't it, to think your bosses are useless & to even hope they get taken away. Not sure if this is worth it to put up. I do feel stupid for ever having hope & I want my hope to go, with them of course, as its totally useless. I know it won't happen, its in the bottom of my soul. Maybe it might happen with other bosses, but new bosses won't be for long time. Reactive people in government don't get removed - oh, not fair - it makes me loose faith in government. Hope that's okay to say. The main thing is I want to give up hope in them - mainly for my mental health

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