Stumped on what to do

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I have been diagnosed with bipolar effective disorder/schizoeffective disorder bipolar type. I take my medicine daily without fail. I know I’m not experiencing psychosis. I’ve been on and off depressed for the last maybe 18 months or so. I’m not sure if there’s an actual problem or not or if it’s just typical bipolar. I have no strong friends or family that I can rely on. I have family and friends but not the strongest ties. I have no real career trajectory and no real way of getting a car and license. I’m here for my cats, I don’t know what I’d do without them. I can be fine one minute and not the next. I don’t know what to do or if this is just my life now. I have a plan but no intention on acting on it. I tell everyone I’m fine but never really how I truly feel. What should I do? 
mindfulness and all that isn’t going to help, distractions can help but they don’t change the fact I have no friends and no career trajectory.

[Dean07]

Hi.
I'm sorry to here you are struggling ATM.
I don't know a lot about the conditions you have been diagnosed with but I do understand feeling lonely.
I went through a divorce a couple of years ago after a 30 year marriage. Major changes and I now live on my own.
Luckily I had a couple of close friends which helped but I still felt lonely. I made a point of excepting any invitations from less close friendships, even if it was for something I would not normally be interested in. I met new people and my friendship group grew. I found being outside my comfort zone challenging but worth it in the long run.
One of the scariest thing I did was move into a share house whilst I was looking for permanent accommodation. I was really anxious about moving into a house I didn't know anyone. It turned out the landlady was an amazing person and I now have a great friend. We still catch up a year after I moved out.   
I found an online Men's group that meet through a program called Zoom. It is a common theme in this group that people feel alone (even inside a relationship) and need connection with other people. It was reassuring to know that I wasn't the only person that feels this way. Connection with others is a fundamental part of being human.
My suggestion would be to reach out to your current friend group or look around for interest groups that you may find interesting. I may be uncomfortable at first but could be worth the effort.