Stuck

[dwade3]

Its been almost 2 years since I last posted here. I haven't been having self-harming or suicidal thoughts lately or for the past months. But despite my mental health improving slightly. I'm just not happy. I rejoined a sporting hobby, hang out with friends occasionally. But it just keeps feeling like its temporary. That whatever is happening is in the long run is meaningless and is just going to be forgotten. I just keep thinking to myself. Is this all I'm gonna be ? I wish I could just try something new but I'm just do damn afraid of meeting people that will just trigger my mental health problems like it always does

[Caribou]

Hey dwade3,

First up just wanted to say it's good to hear you're getting around with your friends and hobbies again. That's a big step to take. Sometimes depression likes to mess with our sense of time, making things seem like they drag on forever, but I find its refreshing to step back every now and then and really examine the progress you've made, no matter how little.

If I may ask, have you spoken to any of your friends about how you are feeling? That bit of external encouragement can sometimes be just what you need to hear during times like these.

Lastly, don't dissuade your efforts as being temporary! Little steps are still steps, and others can see the effort you're putting in.