Stuck

[JustBlah]

I could write this in my daily journal but the dogs ripped it up yesterday. Normally I would be so upset about that but I’m at the point of not caring. I had another suicide attempt last week and woke up again. Clearly not meant to go. I know it is the most selfish thing to say and do. Now I am stuck. Can't do anything unless it is the eleventh hour and I am rushing around like a mad women beating up on myself for feeling so lazy and useless. I'm on medication. I have had the same psychiatrist for 32 years and we decided we are both retiring this year! Just venting

[JustBlah]

Hi OldFella,

thank you for not condemning me. I have had to be hospitalised many times. If you need to, I pray you allow some very caring soul to mind your best friend while you get the care you need so you can come back to them. Everyone is different and I have met some of the most beautiful people there. I have great comfort in knowing I am not alone. You have given me another reason to put one foot in front of the other today.

JustBlah