Struggling to get up and do what I need to do, why is everything so hard

[Joey84]

I've been going through this cycle for a while where I know i need to get up n go to work an just can't. I work myself up n try be positive night before but then the time comes and I struggle and get angry bout it or just don't care if I feel literally sick bout it all and can't do it! I've been on n off anti depressants since 2012, but recently felt like they were doing more harm then good and stop taking them. I was having bad thoughts n terrible dreams and wasn't getting any sleep. I have tryed counselling once but felt like I was being looked at and treated like a looser and that they were like if you know what you need to do then why arnt you doing it. My partner try's and helps but thinks I'm just lazy. Am I? I don't think I am? I'm sick of feeling this way and I need it to change but don't know how, if I go to gp I'll get out back on meds and I'm scared to speak to a counsellor but I want to. So I guess that's why I'm now posting on here, to see if anyone else can help or knows what I'm going through... I dunno I'm just sick of everything being so hard and can't talk to family or friends bout it for fear I'll be looked at or treated different! 

[Neil_1]

Hi Joey

Difficult situation it appears that you’re in.

Have you thought of options of joining a club – and really any kind of club that may strike your interest?  Branching out that way to somewhere that is of interest to you can be a good way to strike up acquaintances as you will be entering into a place where people are with like-minded tastes.  Stemming from that, at first acquaintances will be formed, but you never know from that about the possibility of friendships – it’s the branching out step that hopefully might be taken.

Also, with the holiday season coming up, there may be other job opportunities opening up in places where usual staff may be taking leave – perhaps not long term options, but at this point in time, a job is a job, is good yeah?

Neil

[Chicken_Wings]

Hey Joey,

Have you sat down and had a real conversation with your girlfriend about what is going on?
She might not really understand? I think when we're depressed with think it is so obvious to everyone else. That of course they must know, look at me! But to be honest, it's not that black and white.

You are making new friends here, we might not be sitting right in front of you, but we get you and you can talk to us and it's a start.
Have you thought about joining a team or trying a new sport? Sports are generally gender based and the exercise is fantastic for your mood.
Or, try something a bit different like a frisbee team? Maybe your girlfriend wants to join too? 

Can I also suggest you look into Mindscreen? They are connected to Beyond Blue and you can do free counselling via phone or online.