Hi Tech Succulent,
Welcome to the forums! I'm sorry to hear that you've been struggling with depression, but glad that you saw your GP and are seeing a counsellor. Definitely the right move. While we can't discuss specific medications here on the forum, I have taken medicine for depression for a long time and can tell you that most antidepressants take a relatively long time (weeks) to build up in your system before you might notice any effect. That said, everyone responds to medication differently and it's good that you're being so aware of how it's impacting you. Please don't hesitate to talk to your GP if you are concerned that this is a side-effect.
That awful, restless feeling you're describing is a very familiar one and unfortunately to me just sounds like the depths of a really, really bad depression. I'm so sorry– I wish there was something I could do to make it all go away for you. I know that feeling you're describing of feeling so bad and so odd that you don't even feel like you know yourself, like you're living somebody else's life. It is temporary, but that doesn't make it any easier.
I would encourage you to bring this up with your counsellor at your next meeting, which it sounds like you are planning on doing. In the meantime, if you feel you need some short-term help, or just want to talk, there is always Lifeline and the Beyond Blue helpline. One thing you may find helpful is to do something that makes you feel "grounded," that is keeps your brain busy and focuses the mind. Try getting lost in a book or film (reading aloud may be especially helpful), and do your best to stay well-rested if possible.
We're always here for you on the forums when you need us!
Warmly,
Gems
