So so lonely

[Chili_girl]

Hi I’ve just been diagnosed with Adjustment Disorder adding to the depression and anxiety I already struggle with daily, all of this is making me feel less an less like the strong woman I once was. The last 5+ years I’ve been stripped of everything material and maternal that keep my alive an functioning. Now I’m a skeleton of emotion, bent twisted and very untrusting of all, I’ve worked so hard to hold on to what’s left of my life, I’m sure there is more for me to enjoy, My specialist has prescribed medication, not a direction I’m keen to follow, I have no support and my only friends are those I work with (don’t really want to share to much with them) so so many questions and I know I’m not alone but I sure feel like the only person alive. ???? Xxx

[kanga_brumby]

Chili girl welcome to beyond blue forums in the last three years I have lost family and my minestery home. My friends on finding out I had lost movement in my legs all deserted as my family did. If I fight to pick myself up will you THere is your chalange we help each other.

Peter

[Ggrand]

Hello Chili girl.

I listened to your words and felt your loneliness...Im really sorry your feeling that way....I can relate to some of your story. I lost my husband of 38 years 5 years ago to cancer and due to my weakness of not being able to stand up to some 39 years ago, I have now found myself estranged from my children...I live in a small rural town under 200 residents..I moved here 3 years ago, and leased a small shop that I had to close because of no town support I went broke, then the residents hated me for doing that and started yelling at me...I’m really so alone in this town and my life and I am so afraid to trust people...I thought I might come in and talk to you for some company, I have made several very good friends here on B.B. that do help me to cope with all this...

Im sorry that you have been stripped of everything material and maternal, I feel we have a lot in common here, because I also feel stripped of my family and I had to sell my former home...If you feel up it I would really like to try to support you through what your going through,

I do one day a week as volunteer at a Vinnies store, I had a meltdown there and the workers know of my mental health problems I’m having....I only go out once a week due to my anxiety...and trust issues..

I am please that you have a specialist looking after you, do you also have a psychiatrist/psychologist as well?...

You say your not alone, I understand that as well as understanding that even though you have friends you can still feel like your the only person alive....I’m really sorry your feeling that way..please believe me your not alone...If you feel up to talking here as little or as much as you want to...I’m really very happy to be here for you and maybe we can help each other...

Kind thoughts,

Grandy....

[Chili_girl]

It would be my pleasure to be you blue buddy. I’m sorry for ur loss and yes we can !!!

[Chili_girl]

Hi Grandy, I too appreciate your wonderful supportive words and thoughtfulness, very rare !!

Im available to be a shoulder or an ear when ever I can . I do see my specialist once a month and finally considereding medications. Please stay positive an I promise I’ll do the same xxxxxx

[Rose_3]

Hello Chili girl,

Welcome to the forums!

I turned to these forums because of feelings of loneliness and isolation (and a number of mental health issues). I was so nervous to make my first post but was welcomed straight away and I have quickly found that the forums really are filled with kind, supportive people.

I have managed to open up about so many things I never dreamed I could before and I hope you find the same comfort and safety here. You are free to say whatever you need to say. There is absolutely no judgement or pressure.

I am sorry to hear things seem so impossible for you at the moment. Please try and remember that things truly do get better. Reaching out for help, as you have done, is a step in the right direction.

I look forward to hearing more about you when you are ready.

Wishing you all the best, Rose

[Rishie]

Hi Chili girl,
Yes, mental health issues can strip us of what we used to be, but having people to talk to who understand and accept us can be helpful, that's why sites like this are so great. I'm also dealing with loneliness at the moment, my fiance died recently and my friends who I live with are away because of family issues.
I hope things start getting better for you soon.
Have a nice day.
Rishie

[Ggrand]

Hello Chili,

Just calling in to say hello and hoping that today was better then okay for you....

Awe Chili, Thank you so much for your shoulder and ear, you have a beautiful heart.....Mine are also available for you as well...if and/or you need to use them..

I’m will have to research a bit on adjustment disorder, I don’t know anything about that to be able to support or help you there....Depression and anxiety are my unwanted constant companions and I wish we could shoo them away, but they don’t listen to us, instead we listen to them..which we should try really hard not to...

Chili, ..Thank you very much for saying you will stay positive, those few words warmed my heart...I hear strength in you to want to heal..and I know we can..

I really want to ask you as we’d....RUOK?...

Stay strong lovely Chili..I’m hoping tomorrow is a better day for you then today....I hope you don’t mind but I just wanted to tell you....I so much love your penguin 🐧 avatar.. it’s so cute....

Kind and caring thoughts...

Grandy..

[Tess2]

Hi chilli girl,

no wonder you feel as you do, feeling you have been stripped of everything is soul destroying. I understand. Three years ago I lost my job, a life long career, this led to me eventually losing my home of 23 years and having to move away from where I loved. Fortunately I have not lost my children, they are adults now. But I was stripped of my self esteem and confidence. I have very little money and really need to get back to work but am terrified of failing. I had never had anxiety before all this happened, but now it can be crippling. I have had depression on and off for many years , but add anxiety and I feel that life is barely manageable. I am only telling you this so you may feel that you are not alone.

you will get support from the people on this forum and lots will have good advice. Have you been to your gp to talk about your feelings and see what support they can help you with? I would recommend that you do.

Take care

tess