Hi Sparrowhawk,
Thank you for sharing on the forums and please feel free to vent away. 🙂 Congratulations on getting the job you were after! I have depression and am also job hunting so I somewhat know how big a step (and how daunting) it can be. But please remember to reward yourself, you've achieved a huge goal and deserve praise.
It is common, especially for those with anxiety issues, to underestimate their own ability and feel like they're going to let the team down. Here is a list of thinking errors common with those with depression/anxiety I found on thiswayup.org.au. The trick to overcoming these thoughts is to challenge them. This is best done alongside a mental health professional but some tips include: "What would you say to a friend in a similar situation?" "What happened the last time you felt this way? Did your thoughts come to pass?". Do you have a psychologist or counsellor you can see?
In the meantime if you need to talk to someone please feel free to contact beyond blue 24/7 through phone or web chat here. Alternatively, if you were needing to talk to someone about any issues that are eating disorder or anorexia related, the butterfly foundation also has a national phone line and web chat as well as plenty of resources.
Please update us on how you go and how work goes next week! I hope it goes well and remember - you're just as capable and deserving as anyone else who works there. 🙂
Bob
