So i've been talking to someone i wronged while being depressed and its been hard to hear the truths that they wanted to cut me off and how my actions hurt them. how can i recover from this criticism that depression makes cut even deeper. i know they are right but i'm also sorry for myself because I didn't ask for depression either. its not fun being me and i don't get a break from being with me either. i don't think people with happy lives, filled with happy families, the love of a partner, the joy of a new child can know how lonely depression is. how hard it is to keep your chin up when you are empty, lonely and so sad inside. finding some strength to make it through every day on the hope of a better tomorrow. I feel like an unrecoverable distance now sits between us and wishing won't make it go away. Just another in a long list of losts in a life that i don't want but have to endure. I'm getting help but it doesn't turn on a dime. i'm taking my meds and trying to forgive myself but right now, i just want to cry and give myself a hug and say its ok. tomorrow will be better, you just need to make it through the night.
