Please tell me I’m not alone

[lynq]

I cant believe I’m writing this because I hate talking about myself but it’s gotten to the point where I don’t know what else to do. I have been feeling so down since 2016 like any small inconvenience makes me cry since my dad has put my self esteem so damn low. Like he’s constantly putting me down and comparing me to others and calling me fat and naggy and whiney. That’s not even a quarter of all the derogatory terms he’s used. But I still love him so much. I cant stand when people say he’s rude or he’s got issues. Like that makes me want to punch them for calling my dad such things. I am so sad and unmotivated for everything. I cant even eat and I constantly get migraines. I’m surprised tears even flow these days because of how much I break down. I don’t have any close friends to talk about this with. I don’t have a mum who I can talk about it with. I just feel so alone and unwanted. I wish i was good at something, anything. I used to be a really bright student and I used to play so much sports but I suddenly gained so much weight from stressing about getting into uni and now I just lost all motivation to do anything that used to make me happy like reading and watching movies. I just want to lie in bed all day and not do anything. But I can’t. Every morning I’m woken up at 7:30 and on the weekends if I sleep after 9 I am made to think I did something so wrong. Please tell me I’m not alone in this. I cant be the only one whose own family puts down and made to feel so low and guilty for everything.

[white knight]

Hi, welcome

You seem to be going through a real rough patch and added pressures make one feel worse. These added pressures can magnify to seem worse than they might actually be, like others feelings about your dad- best to just concentrate in your schooling.

You might want to talk to a person at school like the nurse or counselor they often have there. You can also ask your dad what is the 3 things he’d like to see change in your behaviour and make sure you wrote them down- then act on them. If he has more than 3 tell him he has to save the others for another time and that expecting too much out of my capability is unreasonable.

Baby steps is the way to go if you have depression or in a rut. Also use YouTube to see some motivational videos like

youtube Maharaji the perfect instrument

youtube maharaji sunset

and many more of his videos

TonyWK

[Helen72]

Hi Linq,

It seems like you are alone but you're not. I'm here, Tony's here and I'm sure there are others.

My daughter is great but my mum sucks - not deliberately but she does. Friends you can choose but families just are 😞

Can you talk with someone at school? A counsellor or your home group teacher? Can you ring or text Headspace? https://headspace.org.au/eheadspace/ or https://headspace.org.au/headspace-centres/

Let me know how you go

Helen