please help me

[t..c]

I go to school everyday and come back to my parents saying I had an amazing day, when all I do is just sit there staring out the window. at the start of the year I was pretty happy I had a good group of friend in my class but there were a couple girls that bullied me the tiniest bit, but know they have nearly everyone against me but the people I still have are with their groups and their groups hate me so I have no one to hang out with. I feel like dying nearly every second and if I don't I just think would the world be any different without me there and my answers always no. I try to fit in and I try to be happy but I don't think I can do it anymore I need a friend, a true friend but I don't know who or how to find one. someone, anyone please help me any advice will help. but right now I'm drowning in my own tears and I can't get back up..

[16sundayz]

As hard as it may be to open up to your parents, you need to tell them what's been going on for you. Can you write them a letter explaining how you are feeling? Ask them to take you to a doctor who can refer to a psychologist or psychiatrist. You can get up to 10 free sessions a year on a mental health care plan but that needs to be done by your doctor or your parents doctor. Are you able to talk to your school counsellor? I too was bullied when I was in high school and had to eventually leave because it got too much. I don't want the same thing to happening to you. Are you able to hold on for the next few weeks until school ends and then ask your parents to change schools for next year so you can start afresh? I hope you feel better when school finishes for the year.

[Psyched_for_life]

Hi tc! Wow, it’s sounds like things are incredibly difficult for you right now. It must be awful going to school and not having anyone to hang out with. I know it can seem like right now you things are so bad that you feel like dying. I don’t know your personal circumstances and I don’t have a crystal ball but I have spoken to lots of teenagers who have felt just like you and then after sometime things start to get better- they find people they feel connected to and friendships are repaired. It can be really hard to talk to parents when they don’t know anything is wrong- is there another adult you could try? A teacher or school counsellor perhaps? You could also try talking or webchatting to someone from eheadspace or helpline for support.

I don’t think anyone should have to go through this kind of stuff alone so I’m really glad you reached out on this forum! Take care.

[Alexa1401]

Hey TC

I was or am in a really similar position to you. This year was my last year of high school and i couldn't be more thankful. i sadly lost all of my mates because they just didn't want to talk to me anymore. I would be in class waiting to go home and just sit in my room crying without my parents knowing. All i have wanted was a really good mate but for some reason no one wanted to stay in my life. I have been bullied as well and trust me this feeling and all the emotions you're going through will pass. I totally understand that this doesn't help but reaching out on this forum could be a way to meet new people as well. In school you have to remember that these people won't be around you for much longer. When you get out of school theres a whole world waiting for you. Do you have any hobbies such as music, sport, photography, art anything? If so try to focus on them and join groups if you feel up to it. If you're looking for a mate to talk to and be there for you when you feel like this I can be someone to talk to. I have and am going through the same thing as you. Something i live by now is 'Act confident and no one will question you' these groups who are bullying you are only doing it because they don't have anything better to do with their lives. They can see that you have so much to live for. If you left this world so many people would miss you. By staying here and working through this rough time you're showing everyone how strong you are even if it doesn't feel like it right now. There are so many people you haven't met yet that are waiting for you to be in their lives you just don't know it yet. I am here for you anytime!

Alex