Dear Annie
Welcome to Beyond Blue and thank you for coming here and providing your post.
You are not on your own with what you’ve described – it’s a very common theme when as a result of battling negative thoughts, over thinking things, it is one factor that causes depression (and depressive thoughts).
Now despite you having been on meds for the majority of those 20 years, it appears that your husband wasn’t aware of your battle? Did I assume this correctly? If he is now aware of your long-standing battle, do you feel that he’ll be there as a positive support for you?
And while it’s a very positive measure to take with regard to the marriage counselling that you’re having, I do hope that you’ve been able to seek your own counselling sessions with a psyche of some sort over this time as well??
I might quickly make mention of your meds as well. Do you feel they are working for you? And if you’ve been on the same kind for a long time now, it might be well worth getting back to your GP to seek a review of them??
Again thanx for posting and I do hope you can post back again.
Neil
