Hi,
What a difficult situation you are in. Do you think that you might be accessing a dating site because you have some needs which are not being met in your current relationship? If so, have you tried to communicate these needs to your partner? It seems that you are not happy in your current relationship, and if that is the case then something needs to change because you deserve to be happy.
Can the problems in your relationship be fixed through better communication or marriage counselling? Do you feel your relationship is worth trying to save?
You say you would like to leave but are scared to do so. Why are you afraid? Are you worried he will hurt you? Do you have children to consider? Or are you scared to leave because you don't know how?
It might be worth looking into your options and rights before you leave. Do you have somewhere to go? Will you be able to get by financially? Do you have emotional and practical support from friends and family?
If you can identify what scares you, you may be able to put strategies in place to deal with any issues before you leave.
Choosing to leave a relationship is a difficult thing to do, and ending a marriage is a long and painful experience. Perhaps it is worth talking to a counsellor or other professional to help you decide what to do. Take some time to think about what you hope to gain from leaving your relationship, what are your expectations of single life? Do you feel you will be happier, less depressed, less anxious? Will you be happier?
