Hi guys,
I have been really humbled by the responses to my post, "Depression is not a cold.....". It proved to me that no matter what our ethnicity , sex, age or social status we all have the one thing inn common- to be understood , not judged or paid lip service.
What I also read was that we all put ourselves last. We worry about how our depression affects our family, friends, partners, kids.
We feel guilty for being sick. we put off treatment because our family won't cope without us and meanwhile we get worse.
I have been very distresses for the last few days and have taken comfort in posting here. but it is not enough. Ican't do this anymore. I need to be able to tell my nearest and dearest I am sick.
My psych has been trying to get me to see this for years - and I think I get it. you all have helped me see how wrong we are in how we view our illness and yes it is an illness just like, cancer or heart condition.
it needs treatment and without it can be life threatening.
guys tonight when my husband asks what is wrong as I know he will, ( I know he senses a shift in me as he's been thru it before) I am going to tell the truth. I am sick. I feel very sad, anxious scared and don't really know why.
Let the chips fall where they may! I can't cope with the secrets and lies anymore.
wish me luck
be kind to your selves
Stressless
