dear GA, I posted a rather compassionate reply to ?, sorry can't remember, but it was not printed, as I don't believe it would have failed the sobriety test from BB, but not to worry, that's life.
What it was is that I asked my psychologist of 20 years, maybe longer than some marriages, if she had suffered from depression, because I only wanted someone who had been through the awful paces that depression gives to us, and her answer was yes, for several years, so that made me feel at home, because she knew what depression actually means, and not just by a text book.
Text books only can describe what this illness is all about but there are so many anomalies that really happen in true life, they can never ever put someone into a false feeling of depression, that's impossible.
Week after week I would go to my appointment feeling awful, crying heaps, and just wanted the magic answer for the cure to this disease, and each time I left she always said that it will get better, but I never believed how this could ever happen.
Month by month, year by year, no change, or maybe there was something, I got worse, but she was determined to crack me, that was her goal, it was a challenge for her, she had to know where she could break me and persevered, and like we all think that our psych believes we are their favourite, which is a good feeling for us.
I will continue this post as I want you to absorb what I have written to you and all the others who read it as well. L Geoff. x
