No end in sight....

[Azaira]

New here so just introduce myself and tell you a bit about myself, and will try not to bore you so will keep is as short as I can, though I’m pretty sure I could write enough for a book lol.

I’ma married women, 62, gosh I hate saying that 😞

At the beginning of last year I was starting struggling with my health, tired and ached all the time, depressed and anxious, I put it down to my age and working in the Aged Care Industry, which I loved but it was very difficult as I get to attachéd. Somehow I managed to get through to November and I had to resign , I was a mess, I would drive to work praying I could get through the shift.

My GP diagnosed me with Fibromyalgia, so that helped by giving me some answers. Thought I would feel better, but the anxiety and depression has got worse, I spoke to a Physcologist twice, which did not help at all. So basically now, I don’t want to go out, I want to sleep and cry all the time because then I don’t have to think, I have no enthusiasm for anything, I don’t want to talk to people. I just don’t know how to get out of feeling like this. I don’t want to be here, but I couldn’t put my family through losing me so I feel trapped.

If you managed to read all that (I did condense it), I thank you.
I know there is no magic answer, I have tried meditation, exercise, talking to family, but it makes no difference, every day is a struggle, I just don’t see an end to it.

cheers

[Sophie_M]

Hi Azaira,

Welcome to our friendly online community - please know that this is a safe, non-judgemental space to share how you are feeling and what you're going through with others who may have been through similar situations. We are sorry to hear that you have been struggling with feelings of being trapped and well as the pain of these health issues. We understand how difficult this can be and it sounds like you are dealing with a lot at the moment. 

It sounds like you have a family that you really value. Can we ask if you have shared how you've been feeling with anyone in your family? It can be helpful to talk it out with a trusted loved one. If you feel worried or unsure about how to talk about it, you might be interested in our page, “Talk about it".

We hear that it was not helpful for you when you had a couple of psychologist appointments previously. What works and doesn't work is different for everyone, but it's important to make sure that you have some kind of support. Please know that anytime you need to talk, these is support available to you, 24/7. Lifeline is a national charity providing all Australians experiencing emotional distress with access to 24 hour crisis support and suicide prevention services. You can call them 24/7 on 13 11 14, or chat with them online 7pm-midnight AEDT - https://www.lifeline.org.au/crisis-chat/

You mentioned that you've been feeling that you don't want to be here anymore. If it’s helpful for you, you might consider taking a look at what's been helpful for others who feel similarly, on our thread ‘What’s kept or keeping you here?”.

Thanks again for reaching out, it can take a lot fo courage to share how you are feeling, and we are very grateful that you chose to reach out to our valued community. Hopefully a few of our community members will be by over the next few days to welcome you.

[Matchy69]

Hi Azaira and I welcome you to the forums and making your thread.It sounds like you are doing it tough at the moment.My ex-wife has Fibromyalgia and know how that might be effecting you.Its tough when you have physical health problems and definately effects your mental health as well.You are not alone with your struggles and we are here for you listening .

Take care,

Mark.

[Azaira]

Thank you Sophie, I have talked to family about how I’m feeling, and although they are supportive I don’t think they really understand how difficult it is. I’m just raking it day by day and doing the best I can.

xx

[Azaira]

Thank you so much Mark.

[jhonm]

Hy Sophie