Hello fellowship, I am new on here so i appreciate your patience in advance.
I was diagnosed with post natal depression at 18, and from time to time I have felt I recovered, medicated and un medicated.
What I now understand is the black dog is still there, it never goes away for me.
I have many issues at present and am reaching out to see if others are having similar experiences, and how they cope with life.
My issues at present are a list as long as your arm, from relationship, going for a big promotion at work, to my father who's in a nursing home and is sad all the time(he cries on the phone most times I talk to him), to my children whom I hardly see, my sons GF hates me so I can't even call him, a partner who is controlling and not supportive(although he would tell you otherwise), I have major surgery coming up, the house I rent is up for sale as of today, a have employees who push my buttons, I feel alone, I have a constant sensation of drowning, I suffer with fibromyalgia, my mother does not speak to me nor does my aunt, I only have my dad and my children. I have friends, but I feel like I'm a burden to them and am scared to ask for help, I feel I always help them(which is ok). I've received treatment in the past which worked short term, but the black dog still comes back. I'm struggling to cope. 😢 I've had huge weight gain, 30kg, which is something else that causes me irrational thoughts.
If anyone has any suggestions on how I feel better about myself, I would love to hear from you.
Even to just be a friend, who can understand.
Thanks so much for reading my post.
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