Hi, I am in a tricky situation and would love some opinions on what to do.
A couple of years ago, I moved in with a friend/friend through family. It was my first time moving out of my family home (I was a late bloomer in that respect!) and she was in need of someone to live with her as it was expensive to live alone. Things seemed to work out well for both of us.
The first year or so we got along well. But lately in the more recent years I feel like I constantly walk on eggshells around her, as she is always quite moody. Sometimes she’s very nice and we get along, but other times she can be quite mean and constantly making snide remarks to me. Lately I’ve begun to feel like this isn’t really my home. I tend to dread coming home after work because I always wonder what it will be like when I get there.
I suffer from depression and I know I can be a bit “fragile” sometimes and take things to heart, but for a while now I have felt like I want to move out (and move back home to my parents house until I’m financially stable enough to live on my own). I am incredibly unhappy living here.
However, both of us have fallen on some financial hardships. I lost my job and she cut down her hours at work in order to study. She actually got me a job at her place, which of course I am grateful for. But that is one of what makes this situation difficult (although we never have the same shift, because it is a small workplace. However it is a tight knit group of people). I have been trying to secure a different job but so far have been unsuccessful.
She as well, is barely scraping by, and would never be able to cover the cost of rent and utilities on her own. I want to move out but not because she’s a bad person. I think we aren’t suited to living with each other. I know I would carry a lot of guilt and feel I had left her in an impossible situation if I left.
The other issue with me moving out is I would continue to see her at every family gathering. I would of course want to remain friends with her but imagine that my moving out would cause a big rift between us.
Apologies for this really long post. It has been weighing very heavily on me and made me feel quite depressed and anxious. I would love any opinions or advice anyone can offer.
Thanks
