Hi there
Thank you for posting. I feel for your situation. You know that there are people out there to help you. You can post on here as much as you need and there are people who can respond and support you. You can also arrange either online or phone counselling, but can I give you one tip...if you go down that path, you need to commit to sharing honestly, but also be willing to take on simple and clear suggestions and advice, and try your best to implement them. There are too many instances where people will post or seek counselling, just to air their grievances or concerns, receive lots of support and/or advice, but appear not to accept or implement them. It is like they are either scared to give it a go, or they dismiss the support, by saying "been there done that, or I've tried that before".
All the best and we look forward to hearing more from you and supporting your journey
