About a decade ago I was destructive and suicidal because I had a deep infatuated lust for this girl that passed away and I also didn't believe in obtaining independence or future direction and financial security or finding relationship's, I could relate to this girl because the prior six years I was suffering and bullied during high school
Fast forward I was wrongly diagnosed with Schizophrenia because of my prior decade suicidal behavior and I have been enforced on medication for the last eleven years, I ended up having a cholecystectomy and becoming a pre diabetic too as a brutal consequence of taking forced pharmaceuticals
I get abused where I am emotionally, socially and psychologically disliking my father and my mother never wants to acknowledge the truth about him, It gets worse because if I forget to take my tablet despite not needing them my mother blames my feelings and she exaggerates my symptoms and conditions as adjugated and she gets all psychological that I am this way because I'm not taking my un needed medication
I feel my sanity and free will is beneath the abuse of egotistical, un sympathetic doctors that don't have humility and a chance to be wrong about my tragic diagnosis. I'm also financially dependent on my father who I hate and have no work direction or work history at 28, I thought about becoming a dietician until I realized it's too challenging, Most entry job's are retail or factory misery and I wanted a good future, I can't afford to leave my parents but I want my own life and agenda tired of being beneath the wing and shadow of my toxic father
It's my word against these societal respected doctors, I am the victim consistently suffering beneath un wanted and un needed pharmaceuticals and having my parents exaggerate my condition, I don't have Schizophrenia and can't improve my life either
