Your husband sounds like a lovely man. In the day, my husband would have done the shopping on his own because I was so useless. It's great you had such support.
The feeling of being a burden is hard to manage. If only we could admit we need help without feeling guilty about it. But that's the problem, we are taught not to ask for help and only accept help only when there is nothing else left. I don't know what to say to this. I know it's good that we continue to struggle onward even when everything is screaming at us to stop, but it can be so destructive at times. How to know when it's OK to stop and rest a while and when we need to continue. Perhaps we need to carry around our personal meter or gauge that says "Out of energy - stop for a refill".
A new day and a fresh start is always possible so when I wake up feeling good it's like finding the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.
I've had a rough time lately and I find I need to stop doing whatever and have a nanna nap once in a while. Christmas can be rather stressful and although my mom died in 1999 I still remember it was on Christmas Day and I miss her very much. So Christmas is both a beginning and an ending.
Please look after yourself and let others show their love by taking care of you.
Mary
