Hi, this is my first time posting. I’ve always had fairly low self-esteem and low confidence, but lately it feels like every time I build myslef up, someone is there to knock me back down.
I’m half greek and half kiwi so growing up, nobody really looked like me. I was always comparing myself to others and haven’t felt completely happy with my appearance in a while.
Tonight I was feeling ok about myself. I got dressed up to go for drinks with some work friends to celebrate the end of the year, and was feeling pretty good. They are all pretty good looking people. There was this guy in the club who basically said to my face that I wasn’t pretty like my friends.
I don’t know why it even got to me because he’s just some stranger, but that isn’t the first time someone has said something like that. It’s like they don’t get that it hurts to hear you’re not pretty. I don’t understand why it keeps happening but it hurts and I don’t know how to change it.
I can’t really talk to family and friends anout this because it’s embarrassing to admit and they don’t really get it. Does anyone else ever feel like this? I just feel kind of lonely and like I’ll never find someone to love me, for me. And yes I know i’m not likely to find that person at a club.
