For decades I have used painting as a method of transference of my darkness out of my body on onto canvass. I most always paint scenery pictures and most always include a dead tree. In these paintings I am the dead tree. Occasionally I will paint a picture of wildlife or an island or a beach, but usually its something dead.
I like using acrylic paints, and trowels over brushes. Sometimes its B&W and others its in colour. It really depends on my mood. The dark and malevolent emotions are most always in B&W.
What I did notice, is that all paintings are good paintings. I never judge them whilst I paint them. I just put all of my emotion into them. If I don't like the way it looks, I just set it aside. Each picture needs to be assessed for the mood in which it was painted. If I was evil and dark, and I don't like the picture, I will keep the canvass to paint over with a new painting the next time I feel evil and dark.
The first painting was done with trowels and heavy paint, the second will be done with brushes and thin paint. What ends up later is a unique duality painting of two different evil and dark thoughts. One is visually seen by the eye with brush strokes, the other is subconsciously seen by the eye and the raised paint underneath the brush strokes, but in complete contrast to the first.
I don't know if you can redraw on top of other drawings, or add to them or change them, but maybe you can stop critiquing immediately and find use for them another way?
Just a thought
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