Lifelong depression

[Mal50]

Hello all,

this is extremely difficult for me. I've lived with depression, and a sense of worthlessness, my entire life.

I did the online Depression test, and was rated 'Very High Risk'.

I'm not suicidal, per say. I simply don't want to live any longer. Death has become far more attractive to me, than life. Life offers me nothing, whereas death offers me freedom. 

I was diagnosed with stage 4 prostate cancer, about a year ago, and regret undergoing radium treatment. Recently, I refuse to take the prescribed medications that the doctors have given me.

Thank you for reading my post.

[melrose221]

Hi I feel your pain hun, I’ve lived with depression for most of my life and people just don’t understand the emptiness you feel, I take 1 day at a time and hope tomorrow is going to be a better day, just know your not alone and do the best you can to keep going? I’m going to up my meds and see if that helps? Are you on meds do the need to be altered?