Life

[Guest_33999966]

So I have never done something like this before but it’s go to the point i need to express myself. Life feels so like hell everyday waking up same stuff different day I try everyday to upcome muself and achieve different stuff but I just can’t my head races everyday. I just think ok life is on repeat till the day I go .. it’s tiering I have no friends I’m a young female so not having a girl-friend to talk about things to need to I can’t.. it hurts but I blame myself over all these years of college high school primary I’m the reason I have no one.. my mental health always makes everyone leave left with no one.. if only I did not get mistreated at such a young age maybe Just maybe I would be different and successful..

[melodica]

I understand how exhausting it is to wake up to a racing mind and an endless loop. I spent years feeling isolated and blaming myself for my mental health, believing I was the reason people left.

Your struggles are a valid response to early mistreatment.  It took me years to realise I was surviving, rather than being fundamentally broken.

Finding people who understand this specific pain changes everything. Online peer support communities offer spaces where mental health experiences are understood without judgment. Focusing on self-compassion instead of self-blame is difficult but possible. You deserve to find safe spaces where you belong.

[Doors24]

Hi,

After reading your post, I’m empathic to how you feel. Life can sometimes feel like Groundhog Day. And I can acknowledge it myself.

However I wanted to share something I only realised as I got older. Primary School, High School and workplaces, are places where we are essentially forced to be in for a specific reason. Either education or employment. It is human nature to bond and band together during the hours we are in that setting. It makes it more pleasant for the time to pass. However outside of those settings, people have a variety of lives and not everyone will connect with those lives outside. Some friendships are conditional for an environment only. Once we are out of the environment, the friendship will stop. Other friendships, we try to stay friends,but life eventually divides us for one reason or another and eventually the friendship grows so far apart that it is too hard to maintain. And it ends.

However it takes two people to be in any relationship. So all your relationships can’t have ended just because of you. Many factors would have contributed to it. I want you to be aware of that. You can’t be blamed for everything.

 I understand wanting connection and friendship. I am sure you have alot to offer.

Doors24