Just want to talk

[Goldclooud07]

I have a constant feeling of worthlessness and loneliness that I want to shake but don't even know how to start...

[JessF]

Hello Goldclooud07, it is difficult to know where to start with such overwhelming feelings isn't it. When you say worthlessness and loneliness, what are some of the things in your life that come to mind? What sort of thoughts are going through your mind when you feel like this?

[jess334]

Hi Goldclooud,

Welcome to the forums. This is a great place to find someone to talk to.

It sounds like you are struggling a bit lately. It can be hard to cope with those sort of feelings, especially by yourself.

When I first realised I was suffering from mental health issues I felt worthless too. I think that is why these forums are so helpful, because it shows that you are definitely not alone in feeling this way.

Speaking to your GP is a really good place to start feeling better. If you book a double appointment you should have enough time to complete a mental health plan which will give you subsidised visits with a psychologist through Medicare.

Please keep posting here if you are able to. There is always someone here to talk to.

Jess

[Goldclooud07]

Thanks for replying to me.

I've been a silent sufferer of severe anxiety and depression for over 15 years.

I'm 28 yrs old and suffered from the minute I hit puberty. I was bullied from grade 5, taken advantage of, mistreated, gang bashed by people who were meant to be my friends, cheated on, betrayed, abandoned and ignored...I was a massive victim of cyber bullying, and the list goes on. I have what positive people like to call 'bad luck' with things. Everything I touch turns to crap. I can't keep jobs, I can't keep friends and no one wants to spend time with me, it makes me feel like I should just end it all because whats the point of living anymore if there is nothing to live for? Basically everything I gain, I lose.

Whenever I try to put myself forward and take risks, they get shut down or something comes along to always stuff it up so I no longer take risks. Whenever I go to meet someone for coffee, I think whats the point, they won't like me anyway or will just hurt me. When people say they love me, I can't believe them because why would anyone love me?

I think I've been happy for a whole 2 minutes in my teenager/adult life when first meeting my partner of 8 years and now he went and hurt me too by chatting to some girl on Instagram... so as you can see I'm fairly certain I'm not wanted on this planet... I want to help myself but my history and track record really puts me down to even leave the house.

I'm seeing a Psychologist to try and get down to the bottom of these issues but I am way beyond that now. Perhaps medication?